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Merry Christmas to all of my fatsecret family!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I had not realize that I had not been on the site for 56 days and as you can see from my weight chart I basically back to where I started from. So here I am starting again from scratch. I have no one to blame but myself.
I am sitting here reflecting on 2015. I started out the year going full steam ahead and my lowest weight was 175 not easy and hard fraught for weight loss. I had a routine that worked and the weight was coming off. I also had a promotion on my job so to speak (New job/Same pay)but never the less a change in the right direction. Shortly after I received the promotion other employees went out of their way to sabotage my work, so this meant extra hours unpaid correcting and replacing work they deleted from the computer. I was even told by another employee "I hope this job does not cause you to become an alcoholic" (Previous person doing this job was fired for drinking on the job. This is the story Management spun and the employees ran with it. Truth be told the man's wife left him on Christmas Eve last year, after 20 years of marriage and he was seriously depressed and he was being told he was to old to do the job.)It's all good because I have learned a valuable lesson and now I lock desk and computer every time I leave it. It got to the point where I was going into work while dark, coming home in darkness and eating lunch at my desk. I stopped my daily 2 mile walks in the park at lunchtime, because of these petty people. This did nothing to help me as I already have trust issues and here I was again reinforcing that behavior due to other adults acting their shoe size and not their age.
I went through a medical set back this year which sent me into a tail dive that I am just coming out of. Months of not working out due to recovery caused a weight gain as I predicted to my doctors, but I kept going to work and coming home and going straight to bed. One of my doctors actually told me a little weight gain will help with the recovery.(Really) The great thing is I recovered and no signs of cancer.
I didn't even log into the computer at home, because I couldn't work out and the thought of logging into another computer at night after playing full time security guard on my computer at work just stressed me out more.
It's all good because, it drove me to an even deeper spiritual place and that is what got me through all of this.
I just started reading all of my buddies journals and I am so proud of all you and how you have grown in strength, courage, endurance and acceptance.
All of these traits are now showing in your journals and your comments to others on the fatsecret website. WELL DONE!
Okay enough of my own pity party. I am back on track ,but getting motivated is hard for me right now so I need your help. I am going to be turning 50 next year and my son will be going into his senior year of high school. My goal is still the same get down to 140. I really need your support at this time as I don't have a physical family anymore and doing this alone is difficult, especially at Christmas.
Okay gotta run now off to donate plasma for leukemia patients. Will try to get a work out in later today but usually drained after donation. I do it because it helps to save someone else life and that's the greatest gift I can give.
LOVE YOU ALL.
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189.0 lb
Lost so far: 0 lb.
Still to go: 49.0 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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gaining 0.8 lb a week
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