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I am irrationally angry this morning. Well, OK, it's rational. Ended things last night with the BF. He took it alright... initially. Then he called me this morning to say that he didn't want to be completely done and that I should still go down to see him this weekend. All weekend. To which I replied I wasn't comfortable with and that if he wanted me to visit I would come for a day and not stay over. Eight hour round trip (if I start at my parents) to do so. He pretty much shot down that idea.
This is one of the very few weekends off that he gets two days off in a row. How about coming to see me if it's that important?? Yeah, I wanted to go down there and have a rational, adult conversation but now I'm just angry. Mostly I'm angry because I did not sleep enough last night. I couldn't sleep for a while... probably 'til 1 and then Paul called at 5:30. Who does that?? You're trying to prove that you aren't selfish and want to see me but call at an hour that is most inconvenient. And he didn't even offer to try to meet half-way or something when I said I'd come visit. I tried to get him to come up to his mom's house (which is where my parents are as well). That would have given me a 2.5 hour drive and him a 4 hour drive. Not perfect but closer than nothing. Nope. "I don't want to drive 4 hours to stay at my mom's." You aren't looking at this correctly. You should want to drive 4 hours to see me if it's that important to you.
It's always been like this. Like I've said, he was mommy's little man. Youngest brother by enough of a margin to also give him only child syndrome. Just when he says he understands that he was taking me for granted, he does it again. And that is why our relationship is over.
Irrationally angry. Good thing I'm going to a Nonpoint concert tomorrow. :P
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135.0 lb
Lost so far: 3.0 lb.
Still to go: 5.0 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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Diet Calendar Entry for 31 August 2011:
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1452 kcal
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Fat: 36.55g | Prot: 97.58g | Carb: 201.62g.
Breakfast: body fortress, milk, kellogg's all bran. Lunch: la tortilla factory multi, romain, miracle whip, cucumber, tomato, tuna. Dinner: mac and cheese kraft. Snacks/Other: TLC Cherry Dark Chocolate, peanuts. more...
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losing 0.8 lb a week
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I am young enough that I was raised pretty much as an only child but I never got the only child syndrome. Some people are just more selfish that others...its like in their DNA or something. I think that you are right, he should be the one to come see you if he is trying to prove how much he loves you and how unselfish he is. He is probably hoping that if you came to see him you would have adult time and make up and things would be back to how they were. Maybe you could try writing letters to each other...that way you can think out what you are going to say re-read it change it and then he will have it to read and he can read it multiple times and unlike say an email or a text the response cant be instant....and have to go through the mail. I feel your frustration....my ex and I are going through the same sort of thing minus the distance. He says he loves me more than anything but when it comes time to show it he doesnt.
31 Aug 11 by member: allieaac
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Oh I would have so killed him with fire for the 5:30am phone call... as it is I called the cops today because my neighbors to the back decided to have a hell of a fight and the girl ran outside and honked the horn for 30 minutes straight...from 5 - 530... seriously who does that? I do not think you are irrationally mad, I think you have every right to be mad. My youngest brother is basically an only child.. he is 6 years younger than my second youngest brother and 12 years younger than me so he has had moms attention the longest... That being said though.. he is less selfish than my brother that is 18 months younger than me so I really think part of it has to do with personality... the other part has to do with how much the parents make an ass of that person.
31 Aug 11 by member: pixidaisy
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He is definitely hoping for adult time. He was texting me this morning about what we "are" now and said he wants to be a step above friends. When I told him that sex would complicate things he seemed upset by it. I was pretty blunt though. Still a little angry and don't want to talk to him for a little while. I guess when I think about it selfishness is all about the person. I know some oldest children that get that way too.
31 Aug 11 by member: kziemianski
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Pixi, who do you live by that think it's acceptable to hook the horn AT ALL at 5 am?? That's ridiculous. My neighbors sometimes lock themselves out and yell into their windows at all hours of the morning. Of course my window is open too. And that's why I dislike my neighbors! haha.
31 Aug 11 by member: kziemianski
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