Shannonthemom's Journal, 10 July 2023

Please feel free to skip over this, I'm venting to strangers. Drama queen here seeking pitty party and prayers.

Ok, here's the thing, eversince getting my heart broke 6 years ago, I rarely fall for anyone. I try but find fault, I'm not proud of it, I just do. ei must be Christian, fun to be around, not to talkitive, attractive to me, smart, respectable...etc...8 months ago I fell for a guy that was a rekindle from younger days, he didn't want to date me before but we are both older (20 yrs older)and he said he wanted to... some people I just never get over, he's one.. well, We talked for a long time long distance on the phone and finally met up in Traverse City, Michigan, and had a wonderful time. After that, he rarely called me, and eventually, I realized he just wasn't interested.... he said it wasn't me it was him, that he was too set in his ways..... never married, no kids, so ya, i get it. And it broke my heart,...I got obsessive and couldn't stop thinking of him, and so I got a puppy...

Now I have three dogs.

Two days ago, A guy I work with asked for my number and I had been crushing on him just plotonically, because he's super cute, quite, shy but confident...I didn't expect anything bc I thought he was too young, (although, I secretly think God will bring someone into my life when the time is right...) Anyway, he's older than I thought at 39 but still really young. I'm 53, and I'm pretty sure he doesn't know that. We texted a lot last night after he got off work. I don't think I said anything wrong. We talked about sci-fi and not too much else. I was all giddy. He said he'd think of something for us to do. Haven't heard from him other than i texted hey to him this morning and some small talk.

I feel sad and just want some prayers. I'm a dork. I'm introverted and believe people should be in love before intimacy. (I didn't talk about any of this with him!) I think people should be married before living together. NO BODY feels that way anymore. I don't have space for any more dogs.

I hate getting my hopes up, I hate feeling sad.
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I don't know any of you, sorry you get to hear this. 😒😐😕

136.4 lb Lost so far: 22.6 lb.    Still to go: 4.4 lb.    Diet followed reasonably well.

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1329 kcal

Fat: 62.27g | Prot: 37.57g | Carb: 159.28g.   Breakfast: Optavia Wild Strawberry Shake. Lunch: Peanut Butter Sandwich. Dinner: Bolani Basil Pesto, Olive Oil , Cooked Rice. Snacks/Other: Waterloo Sparkling Water, Aurora Natural Dried Banana Chips. more...