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Whenever I eat something sweet or fat I feel guilty. Every day I look at the scale and see how all the hard work I put into being slim is gone. My period still hasn't come and I feel like shit every day. Plus I'm starting to feel tired and to crave sweets again.
Today was the first day in months that I went over the 1200 limit.
I think that if my damn period doesn't start again in a month I'll just call it quits. I loved how I felt finally liking my body.
Now at home, my parents trying to force feed me sweets instead of healthy food, some telling me I should gain weight to regain my period, some I that I look fat and should lose it and get in shape. I know I shouldn't listen to them, but they always know how to get to me. Plus my home friends had an interesting reaction, telling me they didn't think I only had 54 now. Basically telling me I look fat. To h with my crappy body shape with the forever fat ass and legs and skinny top. After 2 years of working out how can I still have an M lower body and an XS top!? I guess I'll just never have the balanced fit look I want however much I try.
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120.2 lb
Lost so far: 1.1 lb.
Still to go: 0 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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Diet Calendar Entry for 23 August 2014:
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1651 kcal
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Fat: 86.66g | Prot: 55.98g | Carb: 197.75g.
Breakfast: Ice Cream, Nectarines, Peanuts, Peanuts, Jam Preserves, Frieda's Dried Cranberries, Honey, Onions, Pickles, Lamb Cubed For Stew or Kabob (Lean Only, Trimmed to 1/4" Fat), Plain Yogurt (Lowfat), Honey, Cheese, Cocoa Powder (Unsweetened), Godiva Chocolate Truffles, Watermelon. more...
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gaining 5.1 lb a week
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