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Happy that exercising again is helping the weight continue to go down. Other than that, though, I am in a funk.
I knew that as soon as my grandsons' joint 1st & 3rd birthday party was over, I would fall apart. They leave for Idaho in 5 days. They'll be gone for 2 years. I took so much video last night, it's not even funny. I'll probably turn into a crazy person, watching videos with a box of tissues over the next few months.
I got up this morning feeling off and then I saw the wading pool and bubbles out my back patio door. That set me off. Then, as I was making breakfast, I was picturing every meal I've ever served them and I spied my special "grandkid" basket with spoons, bibs, bottles and cups.
Yeah, I'm a mess. I cried for hours when my college-age son left for Sweden a year ago. Obviously, that got better with time, so I know I'll get through this.
I've been trying to do things to take my mind off their moving. I am investing in my non-grandmother self. I even applied for a job at my previous employer about 2 weeks ago. They rarely post part-time positions, so I was pretty excited to see this position open. Wish me luck!
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165.0 lb
Lost so far: 25.0 lb.
Still to go: 5.0 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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Diet Calendar Entries for 10 August 2014:
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1221 kcal
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Fat: 42.97g | Prot: 57.09g | Carb: 152.17g.
Breakfast: Maple Syrup, Smart Balance Original Buttery Spread, Eating Right Multigrain Waffles, Equal Equal, Lucerne Hazelnut Coffee Creamer, Granulated Sugar, Coffee (Brewed From Grounds), Isernio's Breakfast Chicken Sausage, Cantaloupe Melons. Lunch: Ore-Ida Extra Crispy Golden Crinkles French Fried Potatoes, Smart Balance Original Buttery Spread, Birds Eye Steamfresh Cut Green Beans, McCormick Zesty Lemon & Pepper Seasoning Salt, Smart Chicken Boneless Skinless Chicken Breast Fillets. Dinner: Blueberries, Jam Preserves, Adams 100% Natural Creamy Peanut Butter, Franz San Juan Island Nine Grain Bread. Snacks/Other: Tillamook Cookies & Cream Ice Cream, Safeway Sugar cones. more...
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2512 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Resting - 5 hours and 20 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours, Sitting - 6 hours, Standing - 3 hours, Housework - 1 hour, Walking (exercise) - 3.5/mph - 40 minutes. more...
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losing 1.4 lb a week
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Sometimes we just feel down and it's part of life. Down time makes us appreciate the good times, so remember those happy memories and go and make new happy memories. Good luck on your job application! Congrats on your weight loss!
10 Aug 14 by member: Deb_N
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Oh I know all too well how you feel! My DS and DIL an 4 grands first moved to Texas, then back home, then to Utah, and are now back home. The job market here in Michigan is not very good. Every time they leave I fall apart. I hope the job he has here now is long-term.
I learned a lot of coping mechanisms while they were away. Skype, visits, and what we call "Saturday Surprises" which are letters with small gifts or coupons that the kids are allowed to open the day before we Skype. One time it might be a coupon for slushies at the local ice cream store, or a package of art supplies so the kids can make a picture to send to me, or a request for a sidewalk chalk photo collage...anything that keeps me in their memory banks...you get the idea.
10 Aug 14 by member: Hipaagrammy
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That's sad, are you able to Skype? I'm saving for a webcam because even though my oldest is working in town right now he's hoping to transfer as soon as a spot opens up in the store where he and my DIL2B (daughter in-law to be) live. When I was little my great grandfather used to record and send cassette tapes to me. Even though I was very little and don't remember now what he said to me in those tapes when I was 2, 3 years old I do remember knowing that he cared enough to think of me and take the time to send something he made just for me in the mail made me feel terrific.
10 Aug 14 by member: JessePacificNW
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10 Aug 14 by member: MomjjjaLou
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Hipaagrammy, Jesse, you are both so sweet and it makes me feel less alone in this. Yeah, I totally need to get a better Webcam. None of our laptops has a built in camera. I hear Skyping with an after-market webcam has audio issues, but c'est la vie. I purchased an iPhone so that we could utilize FaceTime, but the screen is so stinkin' small and you have to either hold it the whole time, or find a stand and table at the right level. Even if I fix things on my end, that won't help much if my DD doesn't have better equipment. Getting her and my grandsons in the same screen will be problematic with just an iPhone. Ah well. I may go old school with a lot of the ideas you guys have given me (making a photo book of pictures of the grandkids with us, sending care packages, reading books together on Skype or FaceTime, etc.)
10 Aug 14 by member: gilliansings
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I so feel your sadness as I too am missing my son. And as much as I try to tell myself how fortunate I am to have this special relationship with him, as well as what a great opportunity it is for him, the sadness still takes hold at times. As you said, it will get easier with time, but the initial leaving is tough. Thinking of you, my friend! xoxox
11 Aug 14 by member: Ruhu
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11 Aug 14 by member: kristyanne3
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Hope you are managing to work through the feelings. Take good care of YOU.
13 Aug 14 by member: Sweet Ce
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You have a bad case of "Empty Nest Syndrome". This too will pass.
17 Aug 14 by member: BuffyBear
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Thank you Ruhu, Kristy, Sweet Ce and BuffyBear. I haven't heard from my DD since they left Friday morning (except for two short texts). I'm sure they're just really busy getting unloaded, etc. I kept busy this weekend, going to our local art festival with my husband yesterday and going for a brisk walk first thing this morning.
17 Aug 14 by member: gilliansings
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