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Wednesday, April 06, 2011
I am in a stupor for the past week and half. I don't know what it is. It is like I get the munchies at night and go crazy in the kitchen. MI y co-worker is doing weight watchers too and she gets 52 points. She is always bringing me snacks and saying it is only 3 points. I have 31 points to eat. I have to spend my points wisely. I know that she has more to lose than me and 52 is like my 31 to me. But boy sometimes it really does suck. However, I did not track very well last week and went up .4. I am tracking this week but I have already used some of my weekly points. I am really kind of tired.
However, I don't have much of a choice. I am pre-diabetic so I got to get this weight off of me. I dream of one'der land. I have 31 points to go to be at 199. How would that be? I have not seen a 1 in front of my weight since i don't know when. Last time I remember weighting 180 I was 17 or 18. That is going to be a happy day to be 199. Wow.
I think there is something to this writing business. Get your thoughts out. I think the other thing I am struggling with is that I want a friend. Husband would be Ideal, but if not I'll take a friend. No funny stuff just someone one to talk to and go out with once in a while. That would be nice to find someone I click with .... is there such a thing? Maybe when I lose the weight I will find someone. I have heard many success stories like that.
But just the little weight that I have lost I do notice the gents' look at me just a little difference. People really do respond to how you treat yourself. If I dress nice I sense more respect and looks. When I dress bum my, i am invisible. It does make a difference how you dress.
Right now my clothes are getting really big. I don't really know what to do. I can’t buy clothes right now, nor do I want too. I have at least 100 pounds to go. Well I was 253 before weight watchers lost 13 pounds and joined weight watchers at 240. Now I am 230.6. Six weeks 10 pounds.
I am trying to be patient and lose it slow, but this has got to come on.
Well I better go to sleep. Good night.
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