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Okay so I haven't been on here in a long time. I got sick an tired of counting calories man let me tell you I was so consumed by this website and everything about it I couldn't take it anymore. I want to loose weight more than anyone could possible know I just don't have any real motivation, I can't afford a gym membership and even if I could I have a 9 month old who needs to be watched so that is out of the question. My husband is so freak n lazy it is no wonder he is getting up there in weight also I would like to get out of the house and walk, ride a bike anything other than sit in front of the tv like he does. I swear what happen to the man I fell in love with the man who was always active then one day he sat on the couch and hasn't gotten up =(... I WANT TO BURN HIS XBOX, TV AND EVERYTHING THAT KEEPS HIM TIED TO THE COUCH!!!!!! lol sorry I am just venting and the sad thing is I use his being so inactive is my reason not to be active. I think that is what is going on I really want to hang out with him and spend time so I sit next to him and I even took on gaming just so we had something in common to do lol bad right? I thought if i join him it wouldn't drive us so a part because I would get so angry when all he wanted to do is play that damn thing! The sad thing is On top of taking care of my daughter, taking care of the house hold (meaning him as well) I have no time for my self. It's hard to get a shower let alone exercising. I love to take walks but having to drag everything out so my daughter can tag along I am just like what ever I don't want to even go anymore is there something wrong with me? Why don't I just try harder? I just feel so down and like I have no space for myself I feel like I am going to blow up with all of this emotion ahhhhhh! lol just kidding but really I feel so unmotivated! How can I become more active with my already busy life. Sorry for my long crazy journal.
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284.0 lb
Lost so far: 0 lb.
Still to go: 39.0 lb.
Diet followed poorly.
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gaining 1.2 lb a week
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