kingkeld's Journal, 19 July 2013

Good morning!

Whew. It's gonna be a rough day. I didn't sleep at all.

They neighbors downstairs were apparently not home all night - but their dog sure was. It's been barking all night, the poor thing. And Wife and I? It feels like we didn't get ANY sleep. Obviously, we did, but we woke up so many times because of the little bugger. I will definitely have to talk to the neighbors about this. This can't happen again. Ever.

I did great yesterday. I came out of the day with a "bonus" deficit of 500 calories, and that's okay. I really didn't want to go lower, and it all added up.

Throughout the day I got the munchies bad. At some point they were getting the hold of me, but I killed it by having a couple of HUGE apples ("Binge on apples - I dare you!" - I love that quote!), and it gave me the control back.

I had my lunch, it rocked, and I had a small pita with ham - my go-to meal when dining out these days - for dinner before I worked at the gym.

Then, of course there was cake day. You guys know how much of a challenge this can be.

Well, after the entire morning in the grasp of the carb monster who was just being a jerk with me, I decided to show him who's boss. I really had an urge to show that I'm in charge of things, and I was tired of sticking my tail between my legs and go for apples when I wanted cake and sugar.

So I had a piece of cake. ONE piece. Calculated. It was 86 calories, not bad at all. I had 100% control of it, and it was great.

In reality, I don't think it was as much about having the cake as it was about showing myself who's the boss of things around here.

I wanted to get out of the day having done right. I wanted to have exercised enough (and I sure did - check out the stats!), and I wanted to not feel defeated. I know that had I had to skip the cake, I would have felt that I had backed out of something I didn't want to back out of, not by choice but by necessity.

I couldn't stop thinking how much cooler it is to CHOOSE to only have one piece of cake instead of the whole "no, no, no, I MUST resist, it's bad for me, I can't control it" thing. To just say "Let me have a piece", and then stop. There and then. Nothing escalated. Nothing damaged.

And that's what I did. And I'm damn proud of it.

So, I had my meals. I was in the right place on my RDI and my nutritional values (thanks to a protein bar before the end of my feeding window) and I am feeling VERY accomplished this morning. It's great.

The results also showed, though not as much as I expected - though I can't complain. I dropped another 800 grams today. I was honestly hoping for more, but I know that I can't ever possibly justify whining over an 800 gram weight drop. :)

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So, today was supposedly my last work day before my one week vacation next week.

Guess what?

I totally forgot that I had arranged with work that I'm off today! Yup! Vacation already started! :D How cool is that!?!

So, this morning I am simply up because I wanted to hang with Wife, write my journal and then get my workout out of the way.

Daughter asked if I was gonna work out this morning, and I definitely will, especially if it'll motivate her to go. It's gonna be a rough one on me, as I haven't slept right, but I need the workout regardless. It's Friday, and workout day, so I'm going - and I'm looking forward to it.

Wife is still working today, so I'll just hang and wait for her to finish - she'll be done at 10 AM or so. It's 6 AM now, so the wait isn't TOO long.

I will also (of course) do my 5K walk while I wait. It's a good time waster, and a good little calorie burner.

Wife and I are going on a date today. I invited her out for dinner with one condition: Reasonable food choices. ABSOLUTELY NO SUSHI! :)

I gotta say I'm a little concerned that I might end up undoing my work from this week, and I REALLY don't want that to happen. On the other hand, I feel that we need a date night. It can be done with reason and good food. That's not the most important thing. Being together and doing something different is what is important. And that's what we're doing.

There are no set plans. We're gonna go to a larger town, and see what happens. I'm skipping my breakfast as always, and lunch will be VERY light, making "room" for dinner. I think I can handle it.

If we only look at RDI, then I have a full day's RDI available. I'm done compensating for the dumb choices I made Monday. This means I have 2100 calories available today, and dinner should be a breeze, as I can easily reserve 1800 calories for it.

Of course, I don't want to weigh myself down with salty food, or with A LOT OF FOOD either. I want a good Saturday Morning weigh-in. This is important for me today, and this is something I'd like to stay focused on.

I probably won't reach less tahn the 78.9 kg weigh-in from last Saturday. Then again, never say never. I've dropped more than 1.6 kilos before. It would be so cool if I did. I'm hoping for it, but not expecting it.

Of course, I can try to push it further along with more exercise. This is actually one of the things we're gonna go do, Wife and I. The weather forecast says "AMAZING", so we're gonna go walking quite a bit. And on top of that I think I will simply keep going for a while, while waiting for Wife to be out from work. Burn some calories, do some good. It can only help. :)

Speaking of calories:
I came across this in the "thermodynamics" thread in the community forum. I've deliberately chosen to not participate in that thread once is spun out or orbit, but it's great entertainment to read it. However, someone (I forgot who) just posted a link to this video, and I think it's frickin' brilliant. Visualizing helps us a lot!

<iframe width="560" height="315" src="//www.youtube.com/embed/KMGUmcveQeg" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe>

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Today, I'm thankful for:
- Showing the Carb Monster who's in charge.
- Early vacation!
- Date night - and in control!
- Wife!
- Coffee! More needed than EVER!

Have a great day and a great weekend! The journals might be shorter the next few days. Life is good!
177.5 lb Lost so far: 164.2 lb.    Still to go: 0 lb.    Diet followed 100%.
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Sorry you didn't sleep well, but that's awesome that you surprised yourself with your early start to vacation!! :) Love the video about 200 calories.. definitely an eye-opener!! 
18 Jul 13 by member: erika2633
Congrats on showing the Carb Monster who was boss. Not easy. And you had your cake and ate it too - LOL. And on vacation? Imagine forgetting that today was a vacation day - again LOL. You have a plan for the day. I too like to leave what I call 'wiggle room' in my food diary in case something comes up, like your date night, so you have some room and flexibility. A lot of this journey is mental as in how you were thinking about the cake - it is a lot 'nicer' to be able to hve the cake, to know you have the calories for it, to enjoy it guilt free, emotion free, to just eat an enjoy and move on. We go through mental gymnastics sometimes - can we have this, can we 'afford' it, does it fit our diet, blah, blah, blah. Doing things your way, ie calorie counting, is great. You figure out how much a particular food costs, look at in the larger scheme of the day,figure if it is worth it, and if it is, hell, go for it and thoroughly enjoy. I have enjoyed my food so much this week, it has been amazing. So I am glad you were able to enjoy your cake. A small thing really but a big victory in another. Sorry though that you are 'dog' tired - lol. It is not fun to be kept awake by anything. I hope the neighbours are okay and that their dog is okay. Dogs are very social and he must have had a horrible night himself being alone. Maybe you should check on the neighbours to be sure they are okay and the dog wasn't barking because they are in trouble? Enjoy your day, your date night, your week-end. And see where the stats take you on Saturday. Hope you make your goal but any loss is a good loss. I am down 0.2 again today. I was just so grateful to see the same number than yesterday, so was really smiling that it is still moving down - despite using all my cals yesterday and a little extra. Sunday this week is my indulgence day. I am sure we will chat over the week-end. Sleep well tonight :) 
19 Jul 13 by member: sarahsmum
Know what you mean about dog noise. Our neighbours have dogs, every now and then, they bark in unison ... Drives me nuts - although to be fair, it is inky for about 10 minutes a couple of times a day... So I guess we are fortunate. 
19 Jul 13 by member: Sk1nnyfuture

     
 

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