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Whew! There we go lol. (No I wasn’t worried the whew was Lee for dramatic effect😉).
Now I don’t feel bad about this weekend. Bus leaves at 6:30 for a choir competition which means a super early morning for me. I’m a night owl so today, tonight and this weekend will be challenging. After the comp we have a day at the theme park, awards at 5:30pm, 2 hour drive home plus probably 1.5 hrs for a dinner stop. Cracker Barrel hopefully! Theme park food... is there even a healthy option there?? No outside food unless I can prove a medical condition due to food allergies. Last time I did sneak in a protein bar but all day walking in the sun and that bar would be out of my system quickly. So probably 3 eating out meals that day followed by Mother’s Day with family. Burgers Sunday with chips and maybe fresh veggies so that won’t be too bad.
I didn’t end up eating to maintenance yesterday. I know I know, I should have. But I thought of all those calories this weekend and I just couldn’t eat more. Never thought I’d have to force junk food but I’d logged it and by golly I was gonna eat it because I planned for it lol. And they have funnel cakes there 😭. I get them like twice a year if I’m lucky and once every 5 years if I’m not. So that’s probably on the menu. I’ll be eating like Chris and Diablo with a young child’s metabolism lol. Would probably look weird sprinting around while waiting on the kids to ride the rides but it may happen 😱😉. I hate people staring at me so probably not haha. The park has a burger place so I’m hoping we stop there for lunch. How bad can a bacon burger be right?? (Don’t tell me until Monday as I can do this if I’m blissfully ignorant haha)
My weekend meals look like this I think:
Saturday-McDonald’s bacon egg biscuit with 1/2 a hash brown, bacon cheeseburger with a handful of fires for lunch, funnel cake for a snack and chicken fried steak, mashed potatoes and broccoli for dinner. Kids will get the rest of my fries as I can’t stand much of the grease anymore but I crave the salt. Looting some on my tongue just isn’t the same lol.
Sunday- protein bar or yogurt for breakfast if I eat, cheeseburger for lunch with chips and hopefully fresh veggies and sweet tea (they serve that or pop and I despise tap water so may bring some propel) and leftovers for dinner. Leftovers would probably be a taco, taco soup or pork loin with my potato casserole as that’s all that’s in there that I could easily log. I’d love a big deficit today (300 or more) but it’s gym day. Why bother lifting if I’ll just waste the time and catabolize the muscle? Did I say that right? Where my body eats the muscle instead of repairing it? (Catabolize over anabolize) now is when I wish I had a dietician to make a meal plan for me for the weekend lol. I know I’ll need the food for walking up and down hills in the sun. Not to mention carrying a 40# kiddo occasionally and a 15# purse and maybe pushing a stroller if I can convince hubby that would be easier. I’d like to take swimsuits and towels for the water part of the park but I’m not carrying all that all day too. I’m starting to see why some parents don’t have their kid in much lol. Carrying things for 4-5 people, the expense, the time etc. Figure in my fear of heights, the fact that the family isn’t, hubby allows the kids to hang over the sides etc and I’ll be a bundle of nerves all day! Dr upped my anxiety meds so there is that! Perhaps it’ll help. Oddly enough he did it to help the hot flashes which seem to lead to most of my ‘episodes’. By episodes I mean when I get overwhelmed and yell at the kids to give me breathing room after 3x of telling them or snapping at the teenager when she says I’m stupid, ‘it’s fine’ to break rules or whatever. He agreed he two oldest should know my triggers and not do them but the oldest doesn’t give a crap. 5 years of hormones already, 5 more for her before she’s 18 and the middle has become a moody ball of tears and anger. So 8 years there and one to go lol. Lord give me the serenity...
Hope everyone has a great weekend! Happy Mother’s Day to all the birth moms, foster moms, step moms, volunteer moms and moms at heart! You know who you are! Thanks for being you :).
Now off to a new eye dr. Hopefully he’ll have me seeing correctly (without the blurriness with moving objects, constant sinus pressure, headaches and lack of balance. I’m ready to see again without all the added issues! That too causes an outburst because I get so damn frustrated at not being able to do things like a spontaneous short race with the kids, being able to drive safely and see what’s going on around me and the pressure and headaches suck. A bundle of nerves this morning!
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120.2 lb
Lost so far: 40.4 lb.
Still to go: 0 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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Diet Calendar Entries for 10 May 2019:
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1620 kcal
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Fat: 65.10g | Prot: 87.20g | Carb: 161.80g.
Lunch: Curly Fries (Medium), Arby's Double Roast Beef. Dinner: Idahoan Foods Real Premium Mashed Potatoes, Homestyle Bakes - Creamy Chicken & Biscuits. Snacks/Other: Betty Crocker Wild Blueberry Muffin Mix, Premier Nutrition High Protein Shake - Caramel. more...
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losing 5.6 lb a week
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