flaxseed's Journal, 21 June 2010

Its early morning here and this is the first day for a very long time that I've woken in an optimistic mood and feel like the status quo has been restored. Help from the doctor (I fought against taking pills for far too long in the mistaken belief that it was weak) and a good counsellor have helped enormously. Nothing has changed much while I've been MIA. OH still having chemotherapy. Don't think its doing much but he is in a better frame of mind thinking that he is having treatment of some sort. I'm now eating healthily again that has made me feel better too. I seem to have been functioning in a hopeless, colourless world for weeks and however hard I tried nothing made it any better. Today the lupins are pink and purple there are tiny green broad beans on the plants and the oriental poppies are a flamboyant red. What could be better than that? Hope everyone is OK and normal service is being resumed.

254.4 lb Lost so far: 0 lb.    Still to go: 34.0 lb.    Diet followed reasonably well.