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another weight fluctuation... actually more like a tidal wave. ive got it under control NOW, but this past week was obviously pretty bad. i hadnt been eating at all and thats why i lost all that weight and this week i ate like there was no tomorrow. please dont ask me why. when eating disorders make sense, ill let you know. but for now, its all a world of craziness for me. i can keep going only because ive got a lot more control over it that i used to. my past relationship with food was multiple times more out of control than it is now and although i guess to an outsider, my wight gains and losses may seem completely insane, im actually thankful that its not half as bad as it used to be.
i dont know what else to say right now other than this: i AM working on this. it may not seem like it but i AM. im happy with myself right now because im on track and thats all i want to think about, and to me- thats all that matters.
i hope all of you are doing well.
...thats all for now.
<3Amanda
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171.2 lb
Lost so far: 0 lb.
Still to go: 41.2 lb.
Diet followed N/A.
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gaining 11.8 lb a week
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