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Here it is Wednesday and I am trying to stay motivated about weighing in on Saturday. My aunt Flo is close to arriving and I have done nothing but strength training this week. Monday- Jillian Michaels No More Trouble Zones, Tuesday- Bootcamp 8 laps, 50 kettle bell swings, 50 shoulder to floor press, 50 push ups, 50 box jumps, 50 dips, 50 calorie burn on machines, 50 push press, 8 laps, Wednesday- I will swim, Thursday- Thanksgiving morning Crossfit, Friday- Nothing because it is likely I won't be able to move. Saturday- Weigh in. Will I be up a pound due to muscle gain? Or retained water due to aunt Flo? Will I be the same? Is there a chance that I will be down? Questions, questions, questions and the answer will come with the scale. Ick!!
I'm not even worried about overindulging for Thanksgiving because I am doing all of the cooking. I'm not concerned about completing my workouts or being motivated to do them because I am on a mission, but that metal thing that I step on every week has me in constant fear. I am starting to think that I need therapy. Will I be happy if I am down and at my mini goal weight of 170 lbs? Will I shed a tear if I have gained weight even if it is muscle? I need very desperately to learn to be satisfied. Be happy with my weight loss accomplishments to date and go with the ebb and flow of my weight loss. Does anyone else experience this kind of obsession or is it just me?
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