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I remember this day four years ago, my 30th birthday. On that day I told myself it was the last day I would be fat and here I am 34 and likely heavier than I was on that day.
I've been thinking about how it is that I get in my own way to achieving my goal. I haven't quite been able to pinpoint it. Maybe I'm afraid to be happy? My family life is going great! Marriage is the healthiest it's ever been, I have clear life goals as well as the steps to take to achieve them and , in fact, am already following through with the steps. But what would happen if I get fit, trim, healthy? Am I afraid that if my life is too good something will happen to take it away? Maybe.
BTW, I have a family member that gave me money for my birthday. Just enough money, in fact, to buy a Wii Fit Plus with Balance Board. Super exciting right? WRONG! Damn Nintendo and their slowing production to raise demand!!!!!!! Why can't they pull that crap when it's NOT this fat girls birthday?!?!?
So that's my plan. Face my fear. And use a video game to get me back into exercising.
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204.0 lb
Lost so far: 0 lb.
Still to go: 69.0 lb.
Diet followed poorly.
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gaining 1.0 lb a week
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