jerrymiller's Journal, 12 May 2017

So sorry for your losses. 😕 Keep your head up and know that there a lot of people here for you! 💕 

sorry, my mother died 3 days before mother's day 11 years ago 😯 

Hugs 

My mom almost died last year while we were estranged so I strangely know the isolation. Go somewhere you love - to the movies, to a park, to your favorite coffee shop, to your favorite "anything" and think about the joy of tomorrow. Corny, I know but it really helps me. :) 

struggling to care for them, work, move everything out to this redneck hell, on top of both sets of old injuries (the '94 kid with the DUI and the '11 motorcycle wreck that destroyed my knee), then loosing them, work trying fire my ass for my grief, getting screwed by what "friends" I had who tried to steal my furniture and held the bird hostage for more $$$ than we agree to to take care of him (no longer friends, so no freinds at all other than watching the folks die in my arms)...with no other family (only kid). I had ballooned, faced serious health issues, sliding into emotional/mental collapse, depressed and with the various drugs for the nerve damage/pain (gabophenton, amitriptoline, armotriptoline, etc)as well as the pain meds (percoset)...(sorry if my spelling sucks) piles on top of everything else...quite suicidal too. long, long fight to get down to my 'fighting weight' and just as long to sort out all the scars this crap has left me with. So, I don't know if I should be glad a innocent lady didn't get drug down with me (thank god I don't have kids) or sad because I didn't have anyone to help me get through it and be by my side.  

Dad pushed me off the fence about riding again (If I didn't try to ride again, it would eat at me for the rest of my life), I have a PX150 scooter I take out and just go...out of town, away from people into the most back of back roads I can find... 

I am so sorry it is all so hard. I know depression and anger and isolation, on top of using food to fill the void. If it helps, know you are not alone. There are so many people who can relate to how you feel even if they are only on a website. :)