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Day 2 of getting back on track went ok. I stayed within my calories, but I had WAY WAY to much sodium! Is there such thing as a sodium hangover, because I sure feel like I have one. I ate so much turkey bacon yesterday just to hold off my cravings. I figured better to have more sodium than eat worse, so I did. On a positive note I ate a salad for the first time in months! I am definitely going to try and fit in veggies more. Maybe I will one day start liking them! Well maybe. After eating so much processed carbs last week the cravings are back in full swing. :( I know I didn't have a choice on what I was eating but still I am getting over the guilt I feel. I really want to change my life! I miss my smaller body, the energy, THE CLOTHS, and loving myself. Right now I feel disgust with myself. Last week I tried for days to figure out one thing I like about myself, and couldn't think of even one thing. Sure I'm a good mother, but that's about what I'm good at doing not about myself directly. I am trying to work on that part but it's hard and most likely is a big reason I go up and down in weight so much. In between a bad marriage, having kids, getting divorced, being a single mommy, dating, and now I'm married to a wonderful man.... all this in a short time and I lost myself I think. In return my weight has went up 100lbs in those years. I guess I'm just not sure who I am anymore and I eat, or talk a lot to not have time to be with myself. The past 3 weeks I've been making myself sit and just be alone with my thoughts. It's been so hard to do, almost torturous, but hopefully it helps me work all this out for the first time in my life.
Diet Calendar Entries for 28 January 2012:
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1059 kcal
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Fat: 26.19g | Prot: 103.23g | Carb: 106.00g.
Breakfast: Extra Lean Turkey Bacon, Large Eggs, 100% Whole Grain Sandwich Rounds, Light Garlic & Herb Cheese Wedges. Lunch: Ketchup, Heb fully cooked reduced sodium chicken breast with rib meat. Dinner: Better than Bouillon Chicken Base made from Chicken Meat with Natural Juices, Honey Teriyaki Seasoning Mix, Sugar, Corn Starch, White Rice (Long-Grain, Cooked), Large Eggs, Boneless Skinless Chicken Breast. Snacks/Other: Reduced Fat Shredded Colby Jack Cheese, Extra Lean Turkey Bacon, 100% Whole Grain Sandwich Rounds, Sugar Free Fat Free Instant Chocolate Pudding Mix, 1% Fat Milk. more...
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3251 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Sleeping - 8 hours, Resting - 16 hours. more...
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