adam247's Journal, 08 November 2016

Hi Adam, WOW! That's a lot to take in. However, I believe you have just took the first step in healing. I lost and regained and did all the roller coasters weight loss for quite some time. It was mentally and emotionally draining. The best thing that happen to me this year was actually changing jobs, people, and places that sucked the life out of me. I was so involve with everybody else business but my own. Also, I started going to happy hours for drinks and the drama all because work was crappy and I certainly didn't like the people I hung out with. What was I doing? Simply setting myself up for a big let down once again. This last round was not drinks, I just ate and snuffed all my emotions, feelings and didn't care anymore as I new I dug myself a deeper hole than last time. Then one day, I got this phone call about a new job and to my surprise, it was the best thing that happen in a very long time. CHANGE! It is here at my new job, I have state of the art gym, coaches for all types of training, nutritionist, and incorporating healthy individuals in my life. Oh and did I mention, no happy hours and hanging out with emotionally bankrupt people. Last thing that I did was allow myself to cry and reflect on all my bad habits and then reflect on my good habits, and qualities. From this point, I accepted I was over weight and needed to do something about it. From that point I learned not to be embarrassed about my fat body and look at I doing something healthy to take care of my problem that's why I am in the gym and outdoors staying active. Turn all those negatives into a positives. At my weakest point, I also found that I needed help from some one who would hold me accountable for my actions while on my weight lost journey. I hope we keep in touch. Please friend me on the site. Have a great day!  

You can turn this around...Mountains can be moved one shovel at a time. A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step...YOU CAN DO THIS! 

I wish I was the weight I was when I first thought I was "fat" (about 120 pounds ago). With that said, I too have tried every diet in the world, but what it really took for me was a lifestyle change. I only drink water now and I stay away from as many carbs and sugars as I can. Friends/family give me looks and questions marks when I'm out with family and they ask "you don't eat ____?!" or "you don't drink ____?!" and I proudly respond... nope! I'm down 37.5 with maybe 90+- to go. Once I get to my goal weight, I will add some of life's food luxuries back, but until then, I just can't. Don't sweat it, you got this!