Hermiones Mom's Journal, 17 June 2016

Just take a moment at a time...I think when we are successful we start to believe we can indulge rather than stay with it.Why 27 pounds? Your goal says 16. It is is just a stupid number. go for feeling fit and skating like a princess! 

HCB -- The goal on my profile is 142, but really I want to go for 134, which is the 100 pound mark from where I started. It's not so much I thought I could indulge because I'd been successful -- more like I was just in some weird cycle of frustration that in addition to the need to lose weight, I have to manage all these dietary restrictions. And if I forget to ask the right questions in a restaurant, I can end up awake all night worrying whether I might be having a heart attack because I'm having a reaction to something in the food. Last night I ate a small Caesar salad and a skirt steak -- nothing so odd, but I have the feeling that the steak was marinated in something I was allergic to or maybe there was a sulfited vinegar in the salad dressing. Who knows? The last time it happened to me it was because I allowed myself to eat corned beef hash. It was delicious, but the nitrates/nitrites/sulfites in the corned beef about killed me. They actually give me an anxiety attack. Horrible. So I have to just calm myself down and get back into my routine.  

You've been going through a rough time, @HM. What with all of the pain, schedule disruption, and financial concerns regarding your recent health issues, it's no wonder you feel a bit discombobulated. I am going to imagine you "skating like a princess," as @HCB said. Love that! 

LOL. Before I can skate like a princess, I need my very own ice skates. So far, I've invested 8 weeks in this process because my feet are two completely different sizes, so we had to negotiate with the company for 2 different sized boots and the blades to fit them and still avoid the full charge for a custom order. Now it turns out that the whole company goes on vacation the first two weeks of July, so they estimate I'll have skates by mid-August. So I decided to ask the manager of the rink where I get lessons if I could give her a deposit and keep my rental skates for the rest of the summer, so that I can take advantage of practice sessions at the rink near me where they have no skate rental. She let me have them, so starting next week, I'm hoping to go skate at lunch time a couple times per week. Thanks for all the concern and support. 

Summer is a crazy time, isn't it? Hermoines Mom, I hope they let you keep the skates. I know this is important to you. You need some fun in your life, like I do ... get away from the stress.