madaboutmoose's Journal, 13 October 2011

First I want to thank the three folks that commented on my evening journal yesterday. It was good for me to read those comments this morning ... and I do indeed feel supported and reminded to keep my brain in line ... with REALITY!! LOL!! I can be so very hard on myself.

Second ... this morning marks the beginning of my 7th day of the high protein experiment and my first fluctuation UP in an entire week. The scale said 205.6 this morning (although when I stepped on the scale about 2 am [and yes I understand that is a little whacky and compulsive] it said 205). I am thinking I'll continue with this experiment until Thursday of next week. Take a little "break" while I'm out of town, and then follow Dukan's recommendation of alternating high protein days with protein/veggies days for a while and see where that leads.

Third. I'm TIRED!!!! LOL!! Dragging this morning. We had another cord of wood delivered yesterday and we stacked it all before dinner last night. We have another cord being delivered this evening. Oh the wood is gorgeous and slowly our wood shed is filling up. We also figured out the handle on our wood stove was loose which is probably part of the reason why we went through so much wood last winter and had such a hard time keeping the house warm. So ... hopefully, with the handle now tightened, we'll burn LESS wood this winter. The fires we've been burning are certainly burning more efficiently ... the difference is noticeable!!

I have a busy day ahead. FOUR. Yes, four home visits. Sigh. I still have a stack of more than a half dozen files I need to catch up on which includes at least 3 reports that need to be written. Realistically I am probably NOT going to get caught up this week. Oh well. Such is life. If I can catch up on my daily notes I'll be delighted ... the reports will wait.

I made turkey meatballs this morning and have some in my lunch bag for lunch later today. Silly me ... I wonder why I am tired. Or as Densible would say Silly Sausage!!! So I did 30 minutes of Pilates, made meatballs, cooked breakfast for myself and hubby, filled the water tank, all before 6 am and I wonder why I am tired? Tee hee. I am indeed a silly sausage!!

I am kind to myself. I like myself. I take care of myself. I believe in myself. I am persistent. I am determined. I listen closely to my body's hunger cues and feed it what it needs to shed excess pounds in a healthy manner. I am an expert in my field and people pay me for my expertise. I am a successful business woman and entrepreneur. I make $100,000 a year. I sleep well. My wood shed is full. I have money saved for a vacation in Mexico in Feb. 2012. I am organized and efficient. I plan well and follow through on my plans. Our dental needs are met. I love my body!! I am patient. I handle strong emotion and conflict calmly. I am creative.

I am grateful for ...

1. Perspective.
2. Awareness.
3. Kindness
4. The smell of freshly split wood.
5. Friday is almost here!!

As I went to bed last night it occurred to me that while I have gained weight this is NOT the same as it has always been in my past. I did not avoid the scale for months at a time. I gained less than I've ever gained before in the last 7 years when I veered off track from paying attention to my eating. I have stayed conscious. I DID maintain a lower weight for a relatively long period of time BEFORE I gained again. I need to remember that I AM SUCCESSFUL right now!!! Instead of engaging in the ever so familiar beating myself up behavior that I do without even giving it a thought.

The up fluct this morning isn't bothering me. The scale has declined 9 lbs in less than 7 days. That is nothing short of amazing. I have been "on track for nearly 7 full days." I have the best buddies in the whole world ... and I am worth this!!

And so off I must go ... remembering to smile, be kind to myself, breathe, and celebrate all the wonders that I have. Oh yes ... I was framing the gain as "see you are the same ... caught in the same trap ... you lose you get fat ... you lose you get fat ..." NO I AM NOT THE SAME!!!! And I am MORE than the number on the scale. This journey continues as it will as long as I suck breath ... and for that I AM GRATEFUL!!!

Have a wonderful day!!!

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2766 kcal

Activities & Exercise: Desk Work - 8 hours, Pilates - 30 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours, Resting - 7 hours and 30 minutes. more...