8hunter6's Journal, 13 February 2016

awww thank you...that's very sweet.  

Next time you need to have a girl. I hear you on Valentine's Day. Just remember that they are there, they are healthy, and they love you. Just in a not-so-sentimental boy way. I'll just be working, but I'll send you lots of FS love. <3 Now, you have to be proud of the 19 pounds and hungry for 25. Then 30. Then 35. . . Watch the numbers move in your weight log, watch the graph trend down, watch the colors in your weight-loss bar change. If you've set too big an initial goal to see the bars change colors quickly enough, change it to an interim goal that you can adjust after you change it. Keep being the awesome cheerleader you are for everyone else here--as you keep cheering them on, you'll be cheering yourself on too! And remember how free you're going to feel when you rid yourself of the weight and everything it represents. 

Lol nah my kids try to use colour paper... I was talking about my husband HA HA HA HA he already said that for valentine's day he might give me the one cigarette he hid ha ha ha ... you are such a sweetheart! thank you <3 ! I don't really mind the big goal. I just... I dunno.... I just feel weird lately ....the last couple days really. I gotta get outside maybe... being a house wife can get pretty lonely. and maybe it's cause I haven't really told anyone what I'm trying to do here. it's like anytime I tell my friends and family what my goals are they ruin it some how. and I have been so obsessive about it for the last month that maybe I cut myself off from everyone..... you know kpwcalories you get me thinking sometimes... I think that's why I've lost some motivation.... I forgot to balance.... I should call my mom and sister... then I won't feel so lonely maybe.  

I was including him as one of the boys. :-) 

Call me up to chat any time. If I'm working, I just won't be able to answer. I get lonely too. Some days I don't care about anything but just do what I have to do because I have to do it. 

Ha ha ha. ok I'll shoot you a text sometimes soon . I don't get to talk on the phone much right now. so you text?? 

I'm watching Lord of the Rings with my boy right now, so if I get a little dramatic in this post, you'll understand the context. :) The weight loss journey is long, like a marathon, and the changes we see in the mirror are merely a reflection of the changes that have already happened deep within. You and I are very much alike. At the beginning, we are all in, 1000%, sometimes to the exclusion of those around us, because it's easier to make headway when you don't have to explain it to everyone. But eventually, our lives catch up with us, and we start to have to explain what's going on, and then the questions come, the side tracks, the rabbit trails, and so on. But this is the second obstacle (the first was deciding to lose weight and starting). The truth is, there are many, many obstacles that we will face to get where we want to go, and the only way is through them, which means we have to grow and do things we haven't done before, or do them in ways we haven't done before. And this is how it goes, how success comes, by identifying that there's an obstacle and forging your way through it, digging deep and finding the desire and motivation deep within. New battles require new tactics. The old way of doing things doesn't always transfer to new obstacles. I think the hardest part for me is realizing I'm facing an obstacle in the first place. Once you define the obstacle, the solution usually is pretty obvious. The trick is to see it for what it really is. Is your obstacle bringing people into the loop? Past habits? Looking for support from others when it is not there? Needing reciprocation for the nice things you do (gifts, meaningful cards, etc)? Not letting your emotions govern your will? There are so many things that can get you off track. I'm with you, my friend. I struggle in the same ways, and I'm constantly trying to overcome. Sometimes I win, and sometimes I succumb. But I never quit, and I'm betting, if you are anything like me, you will never quit either. My best thoughts are with you! 

not letting emotions govern my will.... that's a good one. I need to write that down and post it up in my house. cause ya.... I've been feeling crappy. should that really get in my way?? wouldn't it make it worse to just fall into it?? ... I'm still gonna drink my wine tonight.... but tomorrow is a new day and really I shouldn't give a s$!# about other people (fatsecret excluded ... I still care about you guys lol) and what they do or don't do. do I need people in this house to appreciate me in order to keep going... no... no I freakin dont!!! I'll go get myself a damn valentine's gift ... maybe I'll make my self some bacon roses lol!!!!!! you're right. and thank you.