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No matter what the scale says tomorrow, I will weigh in. I hope that some of the improvements I've made recently will account for something. I am still not working out enough or drinking enough water, so there are two things that could help push the scales in my favor. I'm kind of discouraged. My unofficial weigh in right now is 171.3. That's the highest yet- at least for the past several years, not counting when I was pregnant. :( Sometimes I feel that if FS had a Failures' stories or cautionary tales section that I'd be right there. I am still really mad about screwing up, gaining almost 40lbs in 6 months is obscene. ><
Today's highs and lows:
Highs- I tried to use portion control at dinner. I had 1 serving of chicken instead of 2, I made sure I ate a serving of vegetables, and I did not have more than 1 extra serving of soup.
Breakfast was closer to being within ideal calorie range to stay within my RDI.
Lows- I finished the oatmeal my daughter left in her bowl at breakfast when I wasn't hungry as well as her leftover half pbj at lunch. I knew it was a mistake, but I caved in anyway.
I find myself noticing other people's weight a lot especially when I see people especially fit/thin or especially obese. I don't like it because I sense a critical part of me watching everyone and yet who am I to judge. I may not weigh as much as some people I see, but who's weight is actually heading in the right direction? Maybe it will help that I finally recognized that, yes I can eat as much as my husband fairly easily, but I don't have the frame to carry it. It's so mindnumbingly simple, but I wasn't actually connecting the ideas that I am smaller than my husband (he's 6' and I am 5' 4", though now he is only some teen pounds heavier than me), so I should be eating less. Yet another thing that makes me feel incredibly stupid, but again hopefully now that I have this insight I can make changes accordingly and start getting some progress. I really hope this isn't just broken record syndrome.
Diet Calendar Entries for 22 August 2011:
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1597 kcal
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Fat: 40.47g | Prot: 108.38g | Carb: 203.03g.
Breakfast: peach, gala apple, soft boiled egg, andouille sausage, steel cut oats. Lunch: orchard's finest northwest tripple berry preserves, aviv matzo, Country Vegetable Soup, season sardines. Dinner: normandy vegetables, Savory Balsamic Herb Chicken, lentil soup. Snacks/Other: apple. more...
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1856 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Resting - 16 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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