GlennM's Journal, 29 May 2011

I know you enjoyed that walk!!  

I went again today, didn't get invited anywhere and the people in my building don't bother to do anything. I'll be glad once I'm out of here, I went for a walk and saw lots of people who live in houses or apartments having BBQs. Well, at least I don't have to worry about eating too many calories, I didn't have anything. Have a good holiday everyone, I will move as soon as I am financially able to, almost every holiday I am alone and I don't have money to do anything today and there are no buses anywhere, anyway. At least the weather is nice for swimming or picnicking... 

Hi Glenn, I hate your alone. Do you have a little patio that you could grill on?? Its nice to have a good hamburger or chicken on the grill Have a good evening buddy...Bren 

It's OK - I will not go to any further family functions as then I can't be disappointed if I am not invited someplace. We can't grill on our balconies as it is a fire hazard. I certainly am not leaving anything to some group of extended family whom I don't know and who obviously don't want to know me. Well, enough venting - I will write this evening to keep busy and listen to music as there is never anything on TV I want to waste time watching, too many crime shows on now it seems to me, and it's not healthy to watch that stuff too much in my opinion. I do have friends but they do their own things all the time for the most part, don't want to waste gas money picking me up, etc. unless I pay it ahead of time. Anyway, on a more positive note I know my future will be a lot better than it is now and I plan to move away so won't be disappointed when my parents are gone how I don't see so-called relatives... 

Well Glenn, you can always have us here. We care about you buddy...Bren 

Thanks Bren - this is NOTHING new. I remember years ago on here writing on numerous occasions or holidays having nowhere to go, my friend Bruce has a sister who is fairly well-off and she is just a stepmother so always invites her two unmarried siblings - and they're not even blood relatives, he was adopted as was his other sister, who is separated from all her kids. Luanne has numerous neighbors she spends holidays with, Shawn goes to his mother's house. I'm tired of writing about this on here, anyway it is getting dark out now. My calorie intake today was low anyway, so that is a good thing and I did get a good walk in today too. I am not going to my niece's birthday party, this year I'm invited, if my mom were gone this would not be the case. I don't understand what the problem with my relatives is regarding me, I have done nothing to these people - though perhaps as I had a mental breakdown they're uncomfortable around me even though now I am stable... 

Note to all - I just came across a photo with me and my aunt's nun friend Marie Paul, her walking has gotten me doing the same thing. She walks miles a day and is about 60-yrs-old. She is - you guessed it - thin, maybe 120 lbs., so it is possible to lose weight, but one must get that exercise in at least five days a week, if not more. Most of us will age to the point we CAN'T exercise and the day will come all the sooner if we're not forcing ourselves to walk. I am unlikely to be able to lift weights anytime soon, but swimming at the gym and getting into a sauna to sweat sure is going to help long-term once I do join this fall and it's too cold to go on long walks that I have been able to do lately in the hot weather. So - exercise, keep doing it, and it ALSO I believes decreases the appetite too (IMHO). 

I will not get together with any family any longer except my aunt if she visits and my cousin, Cindy. I could care less if my dad is with my aunt or not all he does is insult her weight repeatedly when we're in the car it seems like. If I have nowhere to go on my birthday, July 4th, Labor Day and whenever my family members might otherwise have a picnic, I need not bother once a year seeing them on Christmas Eve. I don't even know these people except for my sister's one of whom hasn't talked to me on the phone in 4 years. I am doing well and am glad to be planning to move away... 

Thanks for stopping by. It was rather cool here in Sacramento as there is cloud cover and an unusual Memorial Day weekend. I am happy to hear your weather has been nice and that you are hanging in there Glenn.  

Hey Glenn these people don't know you as they should. But you can't make them. I keep telling my SIL's they need to visit their mother while she is still a live. But you can't make them understand that once she is gone thats it. It will really make me mad if I hear any one of them say "I wish I would have seen her more often" You know those remarks will make me mad. I will have a few choice words if they do. If she would have given up on them when they needed her they would be dead. But you can't tell any one anythong, or your butting in..People are so I don't know the best word to describe it. But they only think of them selves. What a shame.... Have great day buddy......  

Glenn, sometimes people are just not very kind. I am sorry that your family treats you this way and that things are so difficult. Remember that regardless of what they think, you are wonderfully and fearfully made in the image of our Lord! He loves you and knows just how special you truly are! Have a fabulous day and even better week! 

Bren- I will go to my youngest niece's party next week. My sisters have their own families so whatever they do is their thing, they're not alone. My cousin Cindy lost her husband and afterward told me that she understood being alone is no fun, her family said she was pestering them too much, as my family has said too about me. Anyway, I need to help around my building so there is some sort of picnic maybe on the two holidays this summer; right now things are up in the air regarding that but I will help cook as I have done in the past at other BBQs here.... 

Glenn have a good time at your neice's party. And in case I forget Happy Birthday the 4th of July... Take care buddy......Bren 

I'm just one week before that - the 27th of June... have a great Monday evening - nice and warm weather here, anyway...