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Well it's been a while since my last entry I have went way off my diet and I feel worse than I ever did before. I have gained up to 258 now and that is my highest weight ever in my entire life. I am so discouraged but I am going to find someway to get myself back and feel happy again and I want live again, instead of staying at home all the time in the house. It is almost summer and I want to be able to get outside with my kids and do things with them without feeling so badly about myself. There is this new product out called Body by Vi I am going to try it that is my next challenge and weight loss venture as soon as I can get it I will start doing that. Meanwhile I will be working out 4 days a week on my treadmill the days I don't work and try to eat healthy and not eat bad when I am at work. I can be a better person for myself and for my kids. I love them too much to just give up on myself, so for 3 months I will do my best and then at the end of each week I will come back and blog and weigh in. To anyone else that has fell off the wagon just pick yourself up and try again that is what I am doing I am not giving in to this fat body I made myself like this and I can make myself thin again. It will be the hardest thing I have ever done in my life but I believe that I am worth it for the first time in my life I feel I am worth it, so I am not giving up ever again, I will work at this till I reach my goal weight of 115.
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