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like always, i have a really good start and do great for a week, and then i give up. ive been off my diet for 6 days now and just eating what i felt likewhen i was hungry. although i was not strictly following the diet, i was trying to incorporate fruit and veggies and drinking a lot of water. that is going pretty well at least, which is good because im well on my way to adapting a healthy lifestyle and eating habits even after the diets are done. tomorrow starts my being good and recording what i eat again, and im going to stick to it this time. motivation is back!
I had to go to the doctors this week because i thought i had really bad sinus and ear infections. turns out i had really bad allergies and sinus problems and i popped my ear drum because of the allergies stuff and pressure building up in it. im on medicine now and feeling better finally. the surprising thing about the doctors is that i actually let them weigh me. for years, like since i was 12 or so, i would refuse to let the nurse weigh me. i knew how much i weighed, but i didnt think they needed to know. i finally let them. i think there are two reasons. the first is that i wanted to check my scales accuracy with theirs (its right yay). i think im also finally sick of hiding the weight and just ready to be like yes, i weight that much, no im not ashamed, and yes im trying to change it for me. im surprised no doctor or nurse has ever said that i needed to lose weight. i think its because all of my stuff is in the really healthy range even though im bigger. like all my blood pressure and blood sugar and heart and everything is still really healthy and normal. im thankful for that.
great news: 7 pounds weight loss so far!! 13 to go until goal 1!
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