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oh shit! The weekend undid my week-long strict vigil and strong willpower!
For the record, I did exceptionally well on Thurs and Fri, and despite going to a happy hour on Thurs, I drank only iced-tea and stayed away from all food and wine. Similarly, on a Little Italy Art walk on Fri, I was SURROUNDED by pasta, decadent pastries, breads, and WINES, and once again, I opted for a small salad and stayed away from all the bad. I didn't get the chance to workout but I figuered, no biggie, I'll count today as my day off and be sure to work out on the weekend.
Then rolled around Saturday, and somehow the day flew by, and I got to my international party at night, where there were over 200 ppl, and food kept rolling in--all kinds of treats from a variety of countries. Despite my well-intentions and all kinds of "proceeding with caution", the evening cost me some damage. I had some chick peas and rice, cheese, a4-5 crackers, hummus, 1.5 torilla chips..and a tiny piece of a blondie, a tiny one of a brownie, and a small bite of a brandy-ball. No alcohol, but did have diet coke.
This morning, my weight had shot up to 145 (3 pounds gained), AND I had a French winetasting to go to. I ended up doing some solid damage here...2 little pieces of bread, 3-4 slices of cheese, grapes and strawberries, artichoke dip, hummus, and worse of all, 3 or so pieces of an eclair-like dessert. I tasted all the wines--and instead of spitting them out--I actually drank them!!! There were 5 wines, so I imagine the tastings added to no more than a glass, total. Yet, I feel so sleepy later, and got munchies immediately after. Possibly coz I didn't drink much water...I did more damage..stopped by at the gas station to fill gas, but picked up two little bags of cheetos!!! ANd then coffee with cream.
Ok, I JUST HAD to come in and make my confession here. I feel terrible. But I HAVE learned a valuable lesson. There is no such thing as MODERATION for me at this point. For the next month, I have to be utterly, completely, 100% strict. NO ALCOHOL AT ALL. That causes the resistance to lower, and bad choices to happen. If I'm gonna go to tastings and potlucks, bring my fruit and veggie platter--and eat lots of that. NOTHING ELSE ALLOWED!!!!! NO IFS, AND, OR BUTS!!! I have told my friends I won't be doing any alcohol-related events for a while, so now I just have to stick to this!
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