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Feeling pretty good about things at the moment. Over my extended vacation I pretty much maintained (which was the goal) without counting a single calorie. It is weird to admit just how scary it was to take away the crutch of counting since I have been doing it every day for so long now. in the end I think it was the right decision to make.
I have been getting back into the swing of everyday life and losing a few more pounds. Today we decided to go through clothes in preparation for the coming fall since we had packed away all of the cold weather cloths for the summer. had to get rid of ALOT of clothes when we put them away and even more going through them now. Only real downside is that now I have next to nothing to wear.
In the process of going through some of our stuff I came across an old pair of pants I had kept as a keepsake from high school. I was wearing them when I met my now wife and I had drawn all over them. I tried them on and they fit, if maybe even a little loose.
Also decided to pack away a shirt and pair of jeans that I had worn in my "before" photos, just as a reminder.
My only real quam has been with my dad. We see each other every week and frequently go out to eat. This week when I saw him something came up about me losing weight, I think because I said something about needing a replacement fitbit because mine doesn't have much life left in it. He asked something to the effect of "how much more weight do you really need to lose" it was the tone that bothered me more than anything. this is the second time he has said something like that now. the last time was probably 30 pounds ago. To put this in perspective, I am a 25 year old female whom, at my heaviest, weighed 304 pounds. Right now, I weight 212. The healthy weight for me (based on BMI from the CDC, which I consider bs) would be between 83 to 111 pounds. I want to be NO WHERE NEAR THAT. And I am nowhere near that. My current goal Is to get under 200 pounds and find what feels comfortable after that. I have no desire to be skinny, I went into this to stop feeling tired all the time, and limited by my weight. There were so many things that I just couldn't do at that size, I was sick of it holding me back. I am a whole lot closer to where I want to be but I certainly didn't appreciate him acting like I was going too far when I am not even under 200.
Overall feeling pretty good, trying not to let any of it bother me, slowly approaching 100 pounds lost which seems unreal. Life is good.
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