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This was another bad day for so many reasons. It is so cold it is hard to think straight. We have taken all the space heaters we own into two rooms, and are all packed in trying to stay warm. I believe the windchill is around -50 currently.
Billy came out today to say he blames me for all the bad things that have happened to us with the move to Nebraska. He wishes we would have stayed in Colorado, and just allowed him to continue the commute. This broke my heart. I want to be with Billy, and take care of him. His kids want to be with him. We were all willing to make so many sacrifices to be together as a family, and it hurts to hear him say he wishes we hadn't. Well its too late now. So I sit with the blame. Nothing I can do to fix it now.
The cold also makes me hurt. My bones, my muscles, my nerves all seem to ache more when its cold like this. This will be the 2nd night in a row I've had to take vicodine. I usually only take it once a month.
My whole schedule was out of wack today. I got the kids to school late. I was hoping they didn't have school at all. All the Colorado schools were closed for their cold weather, but I guess Nebraskan's are more tolerant, and therefore school was on schedule. I thought I'd just get to the gym in my own time, and work out for 2 hours to make up for the slack the day before. Once I finally got to the gym, the daycare was only open for another 1/2 hour. So Billy and I played a little racketball, but no cardio involved. We also went to the pool for a 1/2 hour with the baby, but just walked in the therapy pool, no actual swimming. We went to the gym later in the evening again. Again though, we missed the daycare window. I managed to get in 45 minutes of cardio, but had to juggle machines, cause the gym was too busy. I then joined the boys for about 10 minutes of racketball, and we hit the pool with the baby for another 30 minutes. We got home after 8pm, and decided to take advantage of the Tuesday night special with Papa Johns Pizza (besides we had no lights in the kitchen to cook...cause its too cold), so we didn't eat until 8:30 or so. Pizza was not on my diet plan, but I was starving! Cold and exercise and stress really got to me.
Its 10pm now. I have no clue how many steps I took, cause to add to all the little bad things today, my pedometer is broken. At least I believe it is. It says only 3000 steps after all the exercise and such, and that just doesn't seem right.
I took a meridia today, and can't say if it helped or not. There were just too many other factors that got me off track today. I have one more pill, and I'll try it tomorrow.
I want to try to get back on schedule tomorrow, but am not sure if that is too much to ask for or not. It is sooooo cold, I'm considering keeping the kids home from school even if they are open. Though another part of me thinks its better to get them to school, where at least I know they are warm for 7 hours.
Next big thing to tackle...taxes...sigh.
Diet Calendar Entries for 01 February 2011:
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1644 kcal
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Fat: 59.11g | Prot: 48.68g | Carb: 189.12g.
Breakfast: honey, Tea (Brewed), Peanut Butter Crunch Protein Bar. Lunch: digiorno cheese stuffed, v8 red pepper soup. Dinner: papa johns sauce, bud light lime, papa johns pizza. Snacks/Other: Super Stack Extreme Screamin Dill Pickle Potato Crisps, yellow cake with chocolate frosting. more...
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2690 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Swimming (slow) - 1 hour, Bicycling (moderate) - 13/mph - 22 minutes, Racquetball - 30 minutes, Desk Work - 4 hours, Exercise machine (moderate) - 15 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours, Resting - 9 hours and 53 minutes. more...
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