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It is already 2 in the afternoon and I am just now writing this journal entry. Where has the day gone? Oh I remember now ... I spent 18 minutes on my elliptical (only because that was how much time I had left of a TV episode on DVD to watch), then 50 minutes of Pilates, then I broke out my new kettlebell dvd that came with the 10 lb. kettlebell I bought at Wal-Mart yesterday and I watched it and tried out the moves. The rest of the time I have spent fighting with my internet connection that keeps disappearing on me while I try to get things done!!
What I discovered is I should have bought the 5 lb. weight. My lower body strength is very good but my upper body not so good. I had a hard time pressing up the 10 lb. weight for some of the exercises. I think I need to have both to alternate between. Oh my goodness though ... I do think it is going to be good for my body!!!
I am really mindful of not letting these DAMN fluctuations both me ... LOL!!! I flucted up again today after being lower yesterday ... oh well ... let's see what did Kate say? I am eating well, and exercising a lot, and I won't let the fluctuations bother me? Well, it was something like that!! It doesn't really matter ... I can't really let myself get my underwear all in a bunch ... it won't change anything!! I know what I ate, I know how much I moved my body ... and that is simply that.
And ... I will weigh whatever it is I weigh when we go to Mexico ... it isn't going to change how much fun I have, or how much I enjoy myself, and I'm sure I'll have clothes that fit ...
I think I might be hungry ... I might need to grab myself a yogurt or something ... too late for lunch too early for dinner!!
Today I am grateful for ...
1. A sunny day ... quite lovely out at 33 degrees Fahrenheit
2. I can feel the strength returning to my body each time I get through my Pilates workout
3. my hubby loving the Kindle I got him for Christmas
4. how we all support each other, try to help each other stay balanced and maintain perspective in this journey
5. I don't have to get dressed or go anywhere today!!!
Oh it is such a not good feeling to try to put on a pair of pants you could wear just a few short months ago and it doesn't work. Unfortunately, right now I have more than one pair that I cannot wear. Thank heavens I have some I can wear!!! LOL!!! I would look very funny running about with no bottoms on!! And it might be a bit breezy this time of year too ... with winter and all. I am focused on taking it all in stride, acceptance rather than judging myself, taking the interested observer role and commenting without emotion ... those don't work right now, knowing there will come a day soon enough when those pants fit again and the ones I am currently wearing will be a tad too loose again. I have a very dear friend who tells me she has more than one size of pants in her closet and pretty much always has. She assures me very few people maintain a "steady" weight all the time. And so ... perhaps I am just 'normal' ... no judgment in it ... nothing to do with succeeding or failing ... just being human?!!
Gosh ... sounds like good material to support my theory about practicing kindness towards ourselves. I think I'll continue my practice ... knowing I will NEVER perfect it ... knowing I will remain a fallible woman until the moment I breathe my last breath on this earth.
So here is to US ... all buddies at, near, or below, or above "goal" ... buddies who are all "worth it" ... and who are more than the number they read on their scale!!! Enjoy the remainder of your weekend!! Take good care of yourselves!!
Diet Calendar Entries for 23 January 2011:
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983 kcal
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Fat: 19.36g | Prot: 83.05g | Carb: 132.20g.
Breakfast: Sweet & Juicy Mango Chunks, cottage cheese. Lunch: Weight Watchers Yogurt. Dinner: Lean Cuisine Chicken in Peanut Sauce. Snacks/Other: Chocolate Cheerios, special k cereal. more...
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2731 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Conditioning exercise (health club) - 30 minutes, Pilates - 50 minutes, Precor Elliptical - 18 minutes, Resting - 14 hours and 22 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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