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Man I thought those ribs my husband cooked tonight were going to kill my calories!! Surprisingly it wasn't as bad as I anticipated. Of course the calorie count may not be totally there since there's no telling how he cooked them compared to what I found on here in the database... I guess we'll see on the scale... It was bad. I know I had a salad for lunch to offset it, but I just feel guilty for eating that! Like there is no way it should be legal for me to eat that when I am trying so desperately to lose weight!!
I was able to get a lot of walking in today as we searched and shopped for Amy's new big girl bed. We traveled Ikea for a good 2 hours. The girls and I counted it together: today I visited and walked through 13 stores!! AGH!!!! It was all in the name of getting what we need, but it seemed pretty excessive.... But, to see the look o her face when she got in her new bed, made ti all worth it!!
I know that's not traditional exercising, but it was icy here and running was out, plus we were gone from sun up to almost sun down and I was beat to pieces by the time we got back. It still all feels like a bunch of excuses...
I guess I am really just wrestling with this shame and embarrassment. I have this intent desire to NOT let my husband see me working out. I feel embarrassed. Almost like a kid on the stage performing in the school play. I feel judged and exposed. I don't like that one bit. I am all about hiding under the layers... It's not his fault, just some deep seeded stuff that I have been dealing with for pretty much my whole existence. I know that's probably not how he thinks, but I just struggle so much in letting him see me do it. I was on the wii fit yesterday and was doing really well in a jog and was so close to finishing and then he came out and it was like something took over me and I had to stop. I couldn't even force myself to keep going.
I don't know fully what it is about, and certainly am struggling with how to get over it. God help me.
Diet Calendar Entries for 11 January 2011:
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1349 kcal
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Fat: 49.17g | Prot: 42.64g | Carb: 187.53g.
Breakfast: water, banana, blueberries, great value vanilla yogurt. Lunch: Organic Olive Oil Basil and Garlic, carrabbas bread, splenda, water , carrabbas salad. Dinner: Honey Barbeque Sauce, Sweetened Iced Tea, Buttery Golden Selects Flavored Mashed Potatoes, barbeque ribs. Snacks/Other: ferrero rocher, special k bar, blueberries. more...
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3179 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Sitting - 4 hours, Driving - 1 hour, Standing - 2 hours, Walking (slow) - 2/mph - 2 hours, Housework - 2 hours, Sleeping - 7 hours, Resting - 6 hours. more...
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