Ruhu's Journal, 17 January 2014

Day 3 of 6. On late today, but only because I didn't sleep well, got up and hit 2 early workout classes -- spin then TRX.
But feeling good after another good day yesterday:). Time with mom went well -- lunch out and apartment maintenance stuff. It's best to keep busy with some activity, which limits the time she repeats herself or asks the same question over & over. And dinner out last night with my close friend, her daughter (my godchild) & her daughter's friend. It was such fun, especially so because I found out my godchild is gonna be a mama :)! We're all soooo excited. Not having any daughters myself, she's become like one to me. Will that make me a "god grandmother"?!? Came back to my unit to my berries & tea, which finished another day of healthy eating gluten, lactose & sugar free.

Today, Mom & I are to have lunch with my aunt & cousin. My other aunt is sick unfortunately & my other cousin is working, and it's snowing. But so far, the 4 of us are still on. I also have a meeting with Mom's social worker, and a call with my health coach. Tonight, I told mom a little white lie (you can keep a secret, right?) -- that I was going out with a friend, so I could have some time to myself if I need it. If not, I'll tell her the plans changed & spend some time with her. But given how little I slept last night, I may just keep that lie alive. I'm also realizing that like many Alzheimer's patients, she gets worse as the day goes on. I think they call it sundowning. Plus, since I'm such a morning person, it's when I have the least patience. So, we shall see what the day holds.

On I'll go, but not without starting by praying for serenity. And reminding myself to take this one day, and each one meal, moment, bite, thought & emotion each one at time, praying, breathing, journaling, logging & expressing my way. I'm so grateful for each of awesome you, my family & IRL friends, my god child's pregnancy, that so far so good on this visit, and that I have the health & wealth to live this life I love. Xoxox

Diet Calendar Entries for 17 January 2014:
1213 kcal Fat: 47.68g | Prot: 77.73g | Carb: 135.24g.   Lunch: Bob Evans Veggie Omelet with fresh Fruit Dish & dry Wheat Toast with Smucker's Jelly. Dinner: Berries, Panera Bread Power Mediterranean Chicken Salad. Snacks/Other: Just Tomatoes Just Veggies, Seapoint Farms Dry Roasted Edamame - Goji Blend, Wholly Guacamole 100 Calorie Snack Pack, Trader Joe's Fresh Vegetable Tray. more...
1982 kcal Activities & Exercise: Circuit Training - 45 minutes, Bicycling (fast) - 15/mph - 45 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours, Resting - 14 hours and 30 minutes. more...

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Glad you had a good time with your friend and her daughter. Terrible disease ... I think you are wise to keep busy and a white lie is fine... Especially as you sound like you need some 'me' time. Good work on the workouts and eating :-) 
17 Jan 14 by member: Sk1nnyfuture
Love your countdown, Ruhu! You seem to be handling everything pretty well. Your schedule is working out, it would seem. Grab the "me" time as I realize the stress you feel around your mom. It's hard to face, I know. Time is going quickly. Enjoy your time with friends and family. 
17 Jan 14 by member: Mom2Boxers
I don't think it's really a lie, my friend. You do have plans with a friend - YOU! In my book it's always a good idea to have a self-date especially when emotions are at sensitive trigger points. Enjoy your time with one of your closest friends - YOU!  
17 Jan 14 by member: Sweet Ce
You sound good despite being under-slept (if that's a word). Enjoy the day. Hope all goes as planned. Enjoy your evening, you deserve the evening off, and I won't tell, I promise :) 
17 Jan 14 by member: sarahsmum
Well - that makes you both morning people! And that is not much of a lie - you are spending quality time with you!  
17 Jan 14 by member: BuffyBear
As a mom still healing from the little white lie from Blondie I may be a little hypersensitive to the semantics so overlook me if this comes off as irrational but that's what good friends do is tell the truth, right? I definitely 100% absolutely without a doubt agree with making time for YOU and protecting yourself from the exhaustion and emotionally draining sections of the visit when possible. But I think YOU will feel better if you merely say you have 'other plans' rather than implying it is with another person. That keeps you on the level (as we both know what that guilt can lead to) while still giving you the buffer to protect yourself without disrespecting your Mother regardless of her confusion. Make sense? I'm still in your corner (unless you kick me out after this) and wanting the rest of your visit and departure to be on the level so that when you return home you have no second thoughts or regrets. 
17 Jan 14 by member: FullaBella
So glad your visit is going well. I think making time for yourself is a good idea. It is very stressful seeing someone we love dealing with that horrible disease. I hope your night goes well. 
17 Jan 14 by member: SJacqueline
Sending positive thoughts your way. Sounds like you have everything under control. WTG and do take care of you! 
17 Jan 14 by member: Lynn1958

     
 

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