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Ok, so it seems like the contact high may be wearing off. I am definitely more exhausted recently. Can't imagine why, I am getting to sleep for about 2-3 hours at a time during the hours of midnight to 10am, I only need about 6 hours a night, right? :P :-/
I am slowly gaining the hints of a routine; however, things are still largely disorganized. This is really frustrating for me. Some people thrive on "flexibility"- not having a lot of concrete plans, being able to do things spontaneously. My husband is one of those people. Me however, I'm a bit of a control freak, and this open-endedness wreaks havoc on me. Instead of feeling like freedom it is anarchy for me, a lack of foundation and anchoredness. It is unnerving; I have very little sense of direction and overarching purpose. :(
Being restricted from going out exacerbates this sensation for me. I rediscovered shortly after my new baby was born, much to my chagrin, that conventional medical advice dictates avoiding "crowds" and not taking baby out in public until the infant is 2 months old. I am both grateful and frustrated that my husband is convicted by this professional medical wisdom and unwilling to act AMA (against medical advice), though honestly I think the frustration greatly outweighs the appreciation.
It's summer. I exclusively nurse my baby. I didn't understand why it is so imperative to wait so long before going out. My milk can provide antibodies while the baby's immune system is immature and there's less risk of illness in summer. However, when addressing my concerns/ frustrations to the pediatrician for my daughter's two week check up I learned something that at least makes some waiting seem much more prudent. I didn't realize that infants do not get localized infections. I was told that infants who develop fevers before 1 month old ALWAYS end up hospitalized; infections at this age are systemic and my baby's primary health concern is potentially contracting sepsis (infection of the blood)- which can be fatal. So I am more willing, though still reluctant, to wait until she's one month old before going out, but I don't know how I am going to last 2 months. I really wish I could find some scientific research that agreed with my assumptions so I wasn't necessarily stuck waiting til she's 2 months.
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