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Am really struggleing this morning with some anxiety and have been since around 11pm. I cant put my finger on why either and that is driving me crazy. I guess with all the craziness in my life lately it has just caught up with me but tonight I am shaking all over and crying and cant stop and my stomach is just turning and my mind wont shut off and it doesnt seem like I can focus on anything to help calm down and relax. I have taken my meds, I have tried to knit, I have watched TV and I just am really struggling tonight. The only good thing is that when I am feeling this way the last thing I want to do is eat. I am hoping that just writing down the way I am feeling will help. You know if things had been bad the last few days I could understand the anxiety but things around here have been really good. Jacob has been really good we have had no major blow ups or arguments we had a great day on Mothers day, he has actually ate dinner with us at the kitchen table the last couple of nights and I cant remember the last time that has happened so really things are going well but I feel like I am on pins and needles like when is it all going to blow up again, and will I be able to handle it. I wish I had someone I could call and talk to at this time of the morning and just help sort thru some of these feelings someone who is going thru or has gone thru the same things I have. I have a doctors apt this morning later and I am going to talk to him about that and see if he knows of any support groups localy for parents of depressed teens. It is so hard to always be so strong and positive when sometimes you feel like you are dying inside. Well I am going to go and lay back down for a while and try to rest before I have to get my family up for the day dont know if I will sleep but maybe I can relax some.
Diet Calendar Entries for 14 May 2013:
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1565 kcal
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Fat: 63.35g | Prot: 81.62g | Carb: 134.34g.
Lunch: Swiss Cheese, Beef Bologna, Fried Egg without Fat, Onion Rolls. Dinner: Frozen Grands Buttermilk Biscuits, Boneless Sliced Honey Baked Ham, Cheesy Hashbrown. Snacks/Other: Grapes (Red or Green, European Type Varieties Such As Thompson Seedless). more...
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4075 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Desk Work - 1 hour, Resting - 15 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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