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today has been an okay day i havent really been in a great mood lately.. i really feel like leni and i are totally different.. we have nothing in common.. we dont communicate with each other at all.. it's just like we just live together and we have sex sometimes.. i mean when i was single i was always wanted to be in a serious relationship and now that i am.. it doesnt measure up to what i thought it would be.. i mean i'm getting bored.. its the same thing day in and day out.. he goes to work, comes home in the morning, occasionally helps around the house, sits at the computer, and goes to sleep.. till its time for him to go to work again.. if this is how a serious relationship is supposed to be like then this is not wat i was hoping.. i'm stuck at home all the time with sean.. i mean now that sean is getting older its not that bad cause he kinda just hangs out, playing and stuff.. but other then that i do wat i have to do as "housewife" which is cooking, cleaning, picking up all the time after sean and his father... running around making sure sean isnt putting anything in his mouth and i sit on the internet and i watch tv.. i mean thats it.. and honestly this is not how i want to live my life.. i want to do something wit my life.. i want to have fun.. with sean.. show him that life doesnt have to be serious all the time.. and also be able to go out.. to the mall.. to the park.. i mean anywhere.. but then again what do i expect it is cold.. and of course the whole thing with the car doesnt help either.. i mean i dont want to go out with sean and get arrested or something stupid like that.. and lately i havent been able to go to the gym.. because leni loves his damn sleep so much.. i swear if he had the chance to sleep.. for 10 hours a nite.. i swear he would have no problem doing it..
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