CSmittyRun's Journal, 17 June 2008

I am majorly bumming this week girls, it's one thing after another and it has been making me not pay attention to eating healthy and I have definitely gained. Don;t want to record it yet, I don't weigh in till Saturday and am going to try to flush all the bad stuff out and start fresh but it's so hard with all the stress.

I still don't have my car back yet from the accident. I am returning the rent a car Friday bc we are moving this weekend which now my hubby and I will be carpooling to work since we are moving farther away and I won't really need a car immediately. But when I return the rent a car I gotta pay 20% which is only $6 per day and I will get reimbursed for what I pay but the act of having to pay up front and not having that money for 2 or 3 days is hard cause we are so broke right now. We've been worse off but we are trying so hard to pay down our debt and are finally making consistent payments each month. We used to not even be able to do that.

Then I got home from work yesterday and hubby let me know his boss told him he has to move him down to part time...starting in 2 weeks. He had already applied for a dozen positions before he even told me so I was thankful he was really taking the initiative but it's very scary. There are so many things we have been putting off that we were going to be able to do this month with our extra money and there is none anymore. And I feel so guilty having a gym membership and paying for WW while my husband is saying he will give up cable so we can save $40 a month. I could cry right now thinking about it. I haven't told anybody yet, he called his Dad yesterday to vent and so his parents are the only ones that really know and I'm really worried. I just don;t see how we can't catch a break. We're good people who work really hard so why do these bad things keep holding us back from being successful? I might be MIA for a little while longer while I figure some shit out. I'm sorry for my team, I will try to post to the mini challenges still and even exercise too but I don't think I will be pulling a loss anytime soon unless the stress makes me, but it's usually the opposite.