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My goal for today is to be grateful for everything that I do have...and everything that's going to come as a result of my hard work and honesty. One thing I'm grateful for is you guys. I now have an outlet, where I can give you guys a written copy of my soul and get some positive feed back. I need people to rally around me. I've never been good at asking for help. Thanks so much. I could've made a terrible mistake last night.
What I did in the past is over with. All I can worry about are the decisions I make today. I don't have to look back at the past to know I've come pretty far in my recovery...I'm a completely different person. Sometimes I feel so unsettled and wonder why I feel funny...but this is exactly what I asked God for...I didn't ask Him to make me comfortable...I was comfortable when I was the old KiKi...I asked Him to CHANGE me, my heart, my desire, and my whole way of life...wow.
I'm having a hard time finding a job. I just want to make ends meet...I work at a job around drugs and drinking and now I have to revoke my 2 weeks notice that's sposed 2 be up next Friday.I had an interview this morning, but, nobody wants to give me a chance...my credit is ALL messed up from things that never got paid during my addiction, I'm behind on bills, and I'm just overall stressed. I'm doin' the best I can and it seems like I'm not getting anywhere. So, my game plan is this, continue doing things that will benefit me in the long run...be grateful, stay at my job and pay my bills until I can find another one, so I will continue to apply all over Richmond and interview, and keep up with my diet and school work.
Life isn't so bad...I just can't wait for the day when it'll be wonderful...
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Girl, I am so glad to hear you talking like this. I think you got a little depressed when you came to the realization about you financial situation but it's going to be ok. Trust in the Lord and watch what he continues to do for you. You are trying to fix it yourself and this is where we all mess up at. Good Luck to you and remember we are your girls and we are her for you.
14 Sep 07 by member: Mandie160
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wow.. your are such a strong person... God will show you the way...you deserve it.. life cant always be easy right.. we just have to get through the tough time and the good times will come...your such an inspiration
14 Sep 07 by member: joanne4484
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Hi kiki honey, I've only just managed to get on and check how my buddies did yesterday and i saw your post from yesterday and today - i'm really glad though, that you came to the realisation about your life WITHOUT drugs and alcohol!! Financially things don't look too rosy right now (and believe me, i know exactly what you are going through!) but by sitting down with a clear head, checking your finances properly and writing/Calling and then following up in writing to the company concerned with a settlement breakdown of how you would like to pay off the debt in terms - most, if not all will have understanding enough to try help you get flush again!
Kiki, I wish you luck and remember, you are taking tiny little baby steps - keep going you are doing amazingly!!!!!
14 Sep 07 by member: Chants
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You are such a good person Kiki! Just remember that, the job will come, just trust in the Lord for that. Only speak good things and positive things... I believe if God brings us to it, he'll bring us through it. My husband and I have a hard time with finances too. With paying child support on one kid and trying to raise the other 3 ... times get hard. We'll all make it though. Just keep telling yourself that. You seem to be strong and determined so keep it up!! Things will change ... sometimes we expect things in our time and don't realize that God does things on his time, lol... not ours. I have to remind myself of that at times too. Keep it up girl, I have faith that you will remain sober and making clear and wise decisions. Love ya!
14 Sep 07 by member: lorik
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