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Good Morning. This is the start of a new day.
I did give in to emotions/temptation/mood and dived into the frozen yogourt container. I stopped myself and put the yogourt in the sink to melt.
I know that this is a waste of food, but this is also the only way that I can stay on track. Somehow, having my favourite frozen yogout in the freezer is too much for me right now. Gosh...
It was a difficult, upsetting day and I was very sad and unhappy all day. I felt very restless; knowing that I have to make changes, but frightened to go ahead. I cried when I was with a friend, I felt hopeless and helpless and very sad.
I think that if I had been an alcoholic, I would have been drinking to excess.
I think that I must be an eataholic instead.
Change is a very scary thing, but so is living in such a difficult situation. It is very stressful to be in limbo.
I really think that I want to stay for until my child is out of school, and see him set up in businesses. I do not want to rock the boat for him.
Somehow, I have to get through this period and be healthy for me. I can not continue at this weight, I have to shift lbs. The Dr. told me to get on with it and lose the pounds, She does not get why it is hard, she said" pull yourself together and get up from the table." To her, it is that easy. I guess it should be for me too.
OK, so today is a new day, I can make good choices for me. I have a clean, new slate. Today is a new Day.
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