Yesterday was a struggle. I actually was not trying to struggle to keep from eating, I was actually having to force myself to eat. Yesterday would have been my dad's 59th birthday and I miss him so much.
I am sure Today will also be hard since it has been 9 years ago today since my dad passed away. I was hoping as years passed that it would get easier, but it hasn't yet. On these two days I just want to stay curled up in bed and not do anything.
I ended up smoking twice as much as I normally do yesterday and disappointed at myself, so I am going to try to do better today even though I know it will be a struggle.
Diet Calendar Entry for 14 November 2012:
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551 kcal
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Fat: 5.69g | Prot: 21.55g | Carb: 98.92g.
Breakfast: french vanilla creamer, sugar, Coffee, MOMs cereal, Whole Milk. Dinner: Sweet Tea, Ranch Dressing, celery, Baby Carrots, Lettuce, Skinless Boneless Chicken Breast. more...
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