Good morning, all you beautiful people!
Can anyone tell that I slept like a rock last night? :)
Yesterday was incredibly rough on me. A full night of no sleep really takes a toll on you. I was so tired I couldn't even walk down our little hallway without bumping into the walls on BOTH sides!
I took a nap around midday, but as always they don't do much for me. I did fall asleep, and I think I slept for about an hour. It made me feel better though.
I decided to stay up as late as I could handle, just make sure I was REALLY tired when it was time to sleep. I'm glad to say it worked.
So, today is a whole new day.
Weight is reasonably good - 84.5 kgs - and I'm in a great mood. My friend Big Fella is coming over this morning, and bringing a little bit of bread. He's the one who had the gastric bypass, so you know that the breakfast he's bringing will not be a huge meal. :)
He usually brings two little rolls, one for each, and that suits me just fine. Don't really need more, don't really want more, but it's so easy to keep going if he brought a whole loaf of bread as they come from the baker.
I feel that I am in a mentally good place to eat right and take care of myself today. Yesterday was HARD, as I had cravings for the strangest things - mostly sweet stuff. I guess me being tired and "off center" did this to me. I didn't give in too much, though I probably over did it on the smoothies. Still, it's only frozen strawberries, 0.5% milk and sweetener. It's not gonna kill me.
So, today my food plan will be to eat right. As simple as that. I know what I need to eat, I know what to do. It will be my mission to do so.
The challenge in this lies in dinner today. I promised Wife to go for "stegt flæsk med persillesovs", fried pork in parsley sauce at the local hotel. Here, it will simply be a question of moderation. I can do it. It's a damn good dish, but they probably don't make it as good as we'd do at home - we just need an evening out, and this is a nice cheap way to do it. :)
It's a super delish dish, and I'm looking forward to it, though I think I'm really looking forward to being out with Wife even more. :)
Yesterday, my girdle was REALLY bugging me. Probably also because I was so damn tired. I decided to take it off for the night. Essentially, I have permission to do this, as my surgeon asked me to keep it on to hold the pads in place as long as I was leaking the funky fluid from my stomach.
Well, there is no more seeping, so I figured I'd take a night without the girdle and enjoy freedom.
Well, surprise, surprise. It turns out that the funky feeling from the girdle is not the girdle, it's actually the scar! I guess I'm just not used to it yet, and it feels different. I just assumed that it's the tightness of the girdle that I would feel, and it turns out that it's the tightness - if you can call it that - of the scar.
It's not a horrible feeling, it's just a different feeling. I'll get used to it. I don't think too much about it any longer, I just assumed that it was the girdle I'd feel. I don't ever go without it, so how am I supposed to know? :)
It felt good to sleep without it no less, it was nice for my body to be able to breathe - I think I needed that. I'm not sure if I should put it back on at night, or if I should keep it off. I'll make that decision tonight, see how I feel about it.
So, while I'm waiting for Big Fella to let me know that he's awake and when he'll be stopping by, I'll be writing my journal, playing some music and just enjoying myself.
I have no work today, we took my Wednesday off my plan this week to give me a breather mid-way through the week. I'll be back at work tomorrow for a few hours.
It's nice to have a job where they're understanding my situation, and helpful to get me back on track. I'll be there in no time.
Today I really feel that I am recovering well. Sure, I have setbacks, like yesterday, but I am really doing well. I still don't like the high number that laughs at me when I get on the scale, but I am more okay with it. I don't think it's a good thing that I am okay with it, but it's something I'll have to be for now.
My thing is that when I feel down I want calories, and not the good kind. These are what I need to cut out. Eating chocolate doesn't speed up recovery, I think. :) I've been through this so many times in my mind, and written about it so many times too. It's all about eating the right things and about moderation. Cut out the junk that doesn't help me in any way, and deal with missing it now and then.
I think I'm gonna re-watch the Paul McKenna DVDs again this week. It's been a while - had other things on my mind - but they really could help me get reconnected with myself. It'll help me get in the groove and get me to easier stay on track.
So, today I am thankful for:
- Feeling much better!
- Sleep, sleep, sleep!
- Big Fella coming over.
- Playing music in a few minutes. I love playing music.
Have an amazing day! Make sure it counts, and make it count for others too! Life is good!
