KayBuckaroo's Journal, 19 May 2018

Get back on track tomorrow. No worries. 

No worries indeed! Damn good for you that you logged it and 500 over on one days is not a big things. A display of good mindfulness, be proud of yourself for that. I'm sure I've easily topped your cals per minute mark there more than once. :D :D. It wasn't that long ago that the Jaws theme would start to play any time I got in the same room as a large, deep dish, all meats pizza! Hang tough and keep the faith! 

I an a pan of brownies or a dozen apple fritters could beat that one still! LOL 😆 Gawd! Now I want a fritter! That sucks! Haven’t had one in 4 years! LOL Next time you will plan ahead and pre-prepare. 🤷🏻‍♀️I face each day knowing I’m a lazy snot who will eat the easiest and most appealing options available. Make the healthy choice that one if you can, it works for me at least. 💁🏻‍♀️ 

Tomorrow is another day, take care 

I had to laugh when you wrote: "I have to say, I managed to find and consume 1200 calories within 15 minutes! I’m impressed. lol". Tomorrow (today?) is another day. For myself, after doing something similar just yesterday (I ran out of crackers so had to cut my binge short!) I know I can't "control myself" when I start eating. Most people can control themselves. However, I have found there are still things that work for people like me. 

I love this site so much. You guys are also fantastic! It is a new day, and I was surprised that the scale didn’t tip as much as I thought. Back on track and happy to saw I’m meal planning for the rest of the week. Thank you for your comments and stories, I really appreciate it and enjoy reading them. Cheers! 

I will say, that as a non-bulimic. ..... The emotional rationale for over eating still exists. But my desire to heal from that pathology is greater and so therefore I pride myself in keeping my binges, And adjusting my eating and exercise. I do all things trying to be kind to myself, I spent so many years being violent towards myself.. And truly ranging in a 1500 cal realm pales in comparison to the damage I used to do. Binges used to take me all day and I would do it over and over again. This is more like over eating isn’t it? And I remember in treatment they said that was normal, that most everyone does that from time to time  

That is exactly right, its just a single case of a little over eating, which EVERYONE does on occasion. I'm right there with you in my own way being cognizant of the 'emotional rational for over eating'. Something, for me at least, will always been there. But being mindful of it, and far more importantly, being merciful to one's self are the keys to managing it, at least in my mind. You are doing so many good things for yourself on all 'fronts' of the battle. Keep on rocking it girl! 

🤘🏻Rocketh I will  

For sure. Once you are conscious things begin to change. Then you begin reaching sometimes for an orange, or a diet soda or a yogurt. Thing begin to change .i am a nibbler myself so maybebyou are also. Stay clear and continue the journey. Good wishes!😘