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I've been so frustrated recently with my weight and my body. I hate obsessing over my body, constantly thinking about how I look and feel. I'm finding it hard to stick to the rules I create for myself, the healthy habits I'm trying to form. I feel like I binge and have no control over how or what I eat.
Maybe I've been making it too hard on myself by trying to do all of my own tracking on my own. I'll switch to tracking within this app, and hopefully I can join the gym soon with some help. I feel like my clothes are tight, and I know everyone looks at me anyway, but I'm not sure if they see the same things I do. (They're playing Beauty and the Beast, Tale as Old as Time again in the BoE.)
I don't think I've been getting enough sleep or exercise recently. I'm thinking about trying to fast but I don't really want to. I feel like it will just be another punishment for my body. I'm trying to worry less, maybe by being less strict I can feel a little freer. I think I just really need to go to bed on time, because I honestly feel so tired and I really don't know if I'll have the energy to go running today. And just imagining how guilty I'm going to make myself feel if I don't go for a run today has me feeling scared. But I hate how my body giggles when I run, and I feel sluggish. I could do yoga, but I feel like that's not enough.
Diet Calendar Entry for 02 April 2018:
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1574 kcal
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Fat: 68.74g | Prot: 61.52g | Carb: 183.75g.
Breakfast: Sun-Maid Natural California Raisins, Barley Bread, Egg, Great Value Mixed Nuts. Lunch: Bread Pudding, Family Mart Small Seaweed Salad with Shiso Dressing, Chicken Chili (minus the zucchini). Dinner: French Bread Fattoush Salad + Dressing. Snacks/Other: Chocolate Covered Ice Cream Bar or Stick. more...
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