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Struggling a bit today. I had a rough night last night and its made me crave badly. I didnt sleep well, woke up grumpy, came to work grumpy, but got absolutely amazing news here at work. That helped, but you know those days where you just feel crappy and no matter how hard you try you just revert back to feeling crappy? Thats me today.
I brought lunch, but I want something else. I want a taco with the shell, I want a burger with the bun, but then I look at the shirt I am wearing, its 3 sizes smaller than the one I was wearing yesterday (that was unflatteringly too big, but I cant afford a new wardrobe, so I make do). I have come so far. I cannot let myself down like that. And yes, I know one tortilla will not kill me, but it will make me want one more. I am an addict and for right now, in the current mindset, I cannot allow just one. It would be more harmful than helpful.
I bought a new shirt for my sisters bachelorette party tomorrow, it will look super cute with my leggins that I stopped wearing and a cute pair of flats. I will post pics!! I am also making some appetizers. She is going to make tomorrow a cheat day, but I think I am going to stay strong. I dont feel like I can cheat just yet.
I saw on the Keto Subreddit today a guy who lost 150lbs in a year. He was 540lbs. That is such an inspiration to me. I am huge, I recognize that, but I also know that I can do this. I just have to fight through these days where all I want to do is stuff my fat little face with cake and cry over things I cannot control. I need to start walking more, getting outside. I think being indoors is killing me, I hate being cold and winter in Arkansas was not made for California babies!!!
Lord, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change
Courage to change the things I can
and the wisdom to know the difference.
Diet Calendar Entries for 09 March 2018:
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1091 kcal
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Fat: 82.47g | Prot: 57.32g | Carb: 32.42g.
Lunch: Tomatoes, Lettuce, Hidden Valley Ranch Salad Dressing, Kraft Viva Italian Dressing, Frigo Cheese Heads Original String Cheese, Wholly Guacamole Wholly Guacamole Minis. Dinner: Meat Pizza Topping. Snacks/Other: Mac's Snacks Chicharrones. more...
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5701 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Desk Work - 8 hours, Driving - 30 minutes, Walking (slow) - 2/mph - 1 hour, Resting - 6 hours and 30 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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