kingkeld's Journal, 02 February 2012

First of all, if you didn't read my journal from yesterday AFTER all the comments were added, go back and check them out. There are SO many "moving" comments there, it just made me laugh so hard reading it this morning. Thanks guys, for making me laugh. I needed it.

Why did I need it, you ask? Well, I gained weight again. I know why, too.

Yesterday was a rough day on me for several reasons.

First of all, I slept HORRIBLE. It was so bad that I decided to throw the towel in the ring around noon and go home from work. Long live comp time, though it was a shame to waste it on that. I needed it though, I had absolutely no energy.

I called wife, and we met at the local pizza place for a chicken salad. I did great on this, no trouble. No dressing either. :)

After this, we went shopping, I found some 99 calorie snack bars for work. They are great when you feel that you need a little something. I also bought some protein powder for my morning shake, which I will try to do daily for a while and see if that changes anything for me.

I bought my treasured low cal ice cream, and temptation came and FORCED me to buy chocolate. It was a large one too. Don't worry, I got rid of it. Trouble it, I got rid of it by EATING it. Stupid 1200 calories completely unnecessary. Oh, how I regret this today. Oh well. I need to move on.

Today, I feel rested. I SLEPT LIKE A ROCK!

Today, however, I am back UP above 80 kgs. I do NOT want to be here. I want to get back to the 77, and a little further. I need this. I have to do this.

Wife is gaining a little too. I think we have both been a little too casual about things, and we had a little talk about it today. No more slacking. I still have a goal in April, and I don't want to stray so far from the path that I can't get there in time.

I don't really think it's me upping my calories to 1800 that is the culprit. I work out quite a lot these days, and that shouldn't do it. It's me eating bad things and generally snacking on the wrong things that does it to me.

So, for the next week or two, I have decided that I will try out the new shakes (which I will get back to in a moment) instead of ice cream. I will also NOT do other dumb things. I will, however, maintain my Indulgence Day on Saturdays, but be a little more strict on my intake and only go to the limit as I'm supposed to. It's really not hard, I just need the focus.

So, how's my stomach, you ask? It's a lot better! I think the prunes and the psyllium husk really helped. I feel a LOT better, and a lot more comfortable. I'm actually surprised I didn't lose a pound or two! lol.

So, about the shake... I experimented a little yesterday with doing my meal shake. I made it like an "exlax" version, but I'm thinking I can do things a little different than that, and watch out on the calories.

Yesterday, my shake in the morning consisted of:

- 5 ice cubes
- 200 ml 1.5% milk (what we had available at home)
- 5 prunes
- 1 tablespoon cocoa powder
- 1 tablespoon sweetener

This shake was amazingly fulfilling. It tasted great! However, it was also IMO a little high on calories.

Currently, I think I'll keep going with the prunes, but I kinda want to separate them from the shake, as I don't think it matters too much. AND at the same time I want to incorporate the protein powder.

The shake really fills me up - after drinking them I feel STUFFED, which is a great thing. I want to try to do one right before I go to work, to keep me from snacking all morning. That's the mission today. Also, I want to make it healthier. I will start with simply doing it with the protein powder, the milk and the ice cubes. I'll see how that tastes, and go from there. I'm not too picky on flavors, so if this is good, then I'll simply go with that.

I wonder if I can shove one of these in the freezer and make it into an ice cream? They almost have the consistency already... This way I could replace my evening ice creams with this. That would be awesome, and a LOT cheaper. I think I'll make a bonus one and shove it in the freezer, and see how it comes out. I can always modify it, if needed. Let's see what happens.

So what's the game plan for today? Nothing much, really. I kind of have a game plan of hitting the gym, but I'm not sure I'm gonna do it. It's my long work day, so I am not out until 5 pm. Then, if I go to the gym, I won't be home until 7 pm, and I don't really see that happening. It'll have to be tomorrow that the gym will be taking a beating from me.

Wife is having her first meeting with the physiotherapist this morning. I'm curious to see how it goes.

Today, I am thankful for
- making the decision to do better! It will happen!
- wife getting up with me, and keeping me company.
- COFFEE! I need it, though I slept like a ROCK!
- The outlook of a good morning protein shake. I really liked the one I did yesterday. I am curious how it will come out without the cocoa and without the sweetener or prunes. If it's still good, I'll save 140 calories on that.
- my tummy being a LOT better! Phew.

Life is good!

176.8 lb Lost so far: 164.9 lb.    Still to go: 0 lb.    Diet followed poorly.

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1617 kcal

Fat: 46.25g | Prot: 123.98g | Carb: 184.71g.   Breakfast: Rye Bread (Reduced Calorie), Sliced Ham (Extra Lean), Egg, Psyllium Husks, 2% Fat Milk, Extreme Protein Chocolate Flavor, Prunes Svesker uden sten. Lunch: Tomato Sauce with Herbs and Cheese (Canned), Whole Wheat Spaghetti (Cooked), frikadelle. Dinner: husk, fat free dressing, tuna, eggs, garden salad. Snacks/Other: Cocoa Powder (Unsweetened), Prunes Svesker uden sten, skim milk, extreme protein, 99 Kcal bar. more...

2911 kcal

Activities & Exercise: Bicycling (leisurely) - <10/mph - 40 minutes, Desk Work - 2 hours, Sitting - 9 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours, Walking (moderate) - 3/mph - 20 minutes, Standing - 4 hours. more...