This time of year is always so hard for me. Many deaths have occurred around this time of year. Always push thru. Last week we received the shocking news of a boy my son grew up with passed. Made it thru. This weekend my husband's niece passed. She was 29 and has a not quite 2 year old. Family fighting ensued. I found it horrifying. I do not have any extended family other than my little circle of husband, son, daughter, daughter in law, and 2 grandsons. I am not used to big bickering groups of supposed loved ones fighting over BS. I immediately fell into old ways and ate ate ate. What that accomplished was a big fat NOTHING. Talked with my husband about it. About how it feels to try to stuff yourself so you can't think of anything but being stuffed. Very hard to explain. I WILL get thru this. Always do.
I tried to log everything and frankly, I gave up. Suffice it to say, I KNOW. I wish there was a button to just add 1000 calories to the total and be done with it...
So, another funeral. BUT a new week also. I am thankful for all that I have and will try to keep my eyes turned towards those that love me. Those that are positives in my life. AND I count all of my FS buddies as positives. Forward, MARCH!
