melmi20's Journal, 20 October 2011

Today is my 29th birthday. I'm not as "yay me" as I usually am on my birthday only because of the state I'm in. Last year, I started taking my health seriously and dropped 50lbs. You know that saying "dropped it like a bad habit?" I find it strange that it is meant that whatever "it" is gets dropped quickly when in fact bad habits are soooo hard to drop! Sorry, that's just a random thought because I was about to type, "I dropped my good habits like a bad habit." But those bad habits were not easy to drop and the good habits weren't easy to get.

Well, since last year, I've gained 30lbs. boo! I wanted to be fit for the last year in my twenties just so that this decade, where you're supposed to have the most fun in life (so I'm told), was not a total waste. I remember turning 19 and wanting to be fit and trim sooo bad. I was upset that I spent my teenage years heavy (although I played two sports in HS) and I was determined to be fit and healthy in my 20s. Instead, over the past 10 years, I've lost and gained the same 40-45lbs. grr. In fact, I have a "skinny bucket" of clothes that fit me beautifully at 19. Really cute jeans and shorts that back then, I hated that I was a size 18-20, but now (at size 26) I wish I can get into! LOL! Crazy, huh? Well, I think it's a little more serious for me now. I wasn't a type 2 diabetic at 19 (was diagnosed at 24). It had more to do with aesthetics for me back then. Now, things are lot more serious now. I know I can cure my diabetes, doctors have told me time and time again. I'm not as concerned about my looks as I am about my health. I've been heavy all my life but I wasn't sad about the way I looked. I've always been a little "*snap* *snap* DIVA!" LOL!! At 19 I wanted to lose weight to buy cuter clothes and be more diva. Now at 29, I NEED to lose weight to be cured.....and buy cuter clothes and be more diva. :)

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1519 kcal

Fat: 53.67g | Prot: 104.79g | Carb: 132.39g.   Breakfast: splenda, coffee, Coffee mate natural bliss, american cheese, whole wheat toast, butter, egg. Lunch: kraft mayo, publix sweet ham, goldfish bread, Select Harvest Light Vegetable Beef & Barley Soup. Dinner: green beans, olive oil, butter, Cauliflower, salmon. Snacks/Other: Corona Light, smuckers no sugar added strawberry, Nonfat Plain Greek Yogurt. more...

3412 kcal

Activities & Exercise: Resting - 16 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...