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I am so stressed and sad and broken and on the verge of collapse :( Not great circumstances to start my diet. :(
Things I did well:
- Worked out for 35 min on the eliptical trainer at a higher intensity than usual
- Took a nice hot sauna
- Resisted sweet cream filled pastries at morning tea
- Ordered a very healthy salad when my boss unexpectedly took me out to eat
Things I didn't do well:
- Had a soy hot chocolate
- Came home and had a glass of soy milk and a few slices home made bread: comfort eating
The situation:
Last week a girl at work blew up at me and it got really personal. She's a young, blonde model. I'm an old, dumpy non-model. She claimed I'm threatened by her, which I'm not. But, the very fact that she thought I would be highlights the differences between our appearance and that sucked. She also pointed out how "everyone" knows I'm threated by her, and I see her having little gossipy conversations around the office.
The kicker? I'm more senior than her. Also, our company only has about 10 people and we all work in one room. There's no escaping her. I've handled the situation with as much grace as I can, and my boss is playing mediator and sympathizes with me. But it means I'm internalizing all of my stress and anxiety which lead to my comfort eating just now. I'm stressed because tomorrow I have two more meetings about the "situation" - one with my boss telling me all the problems the other girl has with me, and the other is a meeting with him and her to "clear the air and figure out how to work together". I'm not looking forward to either. Combine this with the fact I've got a brand new employee to train up, all the while pretending everything is fine (when its not) and I'm at stress overload.
THEN - my mom emails me to tell me the family dog ran away and got hit by a car while in the care of my stepdad. I think my mom really hates the man she's been married to for 20 years. She never says a nice thing about him, and before she left on holiday she'd bitched about how she worried the dog wouldn't be well cared for when she left. Now she's got ammunition to say "I told you so" and she's self righteous and furious. So was a bit of a bummer email to read on a totally stressful day.
The work situation started in earnest on Weds of last week. Tomorrow will be the 6th day I've been stressed/anxious and angry over it. It is so draining. So very draining.
Now, I go count my calories and see if I have enough to have dinner, or if I send myself to bed without supper.
SAD DAY.
Diet Calendar Entries for 17 August 2009:
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1449 kcal
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Fat: 36.32g | Prot: 86.49g | Carb: 200.73g.
Breakfast: skim milk, special k. Lunch: beet, falafel. Dinner: spinach, tofu, broccoli, bread . Snacks/Other: soy hot chocolate. more...
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3145 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Walking (slow) - 2/mph - 15 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours, Resting - 7 hours and 15 minutes, Desk Work - 8 hours, Exercise machine (slow) - 30 minutes. more...
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So sorry about your work situation. I've never had to deal with anyone like that - the only thing I've come close to is a guy that kept bothering me. Always telling me how pretty I was, asking me if I had a twin sister so he could date her, yada yada yada. The final straw was him blowing kisses to me as he was leaving. I told the boss, and they took care of it. Unfourtinatly, less than a month later I was laid off with 7 other people (he kept his job). Anyway, as you know, eating bad food will not make this matter go away. I know its a great form of comfort, but just try to say no!! Go for a nice walk instead!!! Have a great day, and good luck at work today.
18 Aug 09 by member: MomofTwoGirls
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Im really sorry you are having such a tough time of it. People in work places can be jerks sometimes. I've never had to deal with a situation like yours before, but my girlfriend (who is too nice and mostly passive) has to deal with a lot of crap. People treat her like a door mat wayyyyy too often. No one deserves to be treated that way and if this model-type woman is attacking you for no reason, then I hope that you will stand up to her especially since she is junior to you in the company.
Its a bummer about your mom venting to you about the dog. Its not really helpful at all on a day like the one you've had.
I hope you have a much better and healthier day tomorrow! :)
19 Aug 09 by member: scinsk
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I had a similar situation at my last work. My team leader picked away at me until I became a nervous wreck. I haven't worked since, and that was years ago, but I gave up work because my son needed me to be home.
You have so much going on in your life! But you know I noticed two things. Firstly how impressed I am by how much exercise you're doing. You really are doing great! When I first got our elliptical trainer (cross trainer) I couldn't even manage 2 minutes on it before it killed me hahaha.
The second thing I believe, is that people who accuse you of being threatened by them, the situation is usually reversed. I daresay this other person wants to be as good as you are, so instead of working on her own self, she's trying to manipulate you and attack you to try and take your power away, trying to bring you down to her own level.
Hold your head up. You are doing wonderfully at the exercise, and the job and you don't need some silly girl making you feel anything less than the strong person you are.
30 Aug 09 by member: moosterrooster
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