wantachange's Journal, 10 May 2011

So, your journal begs the question...Why? Have you just slipped away, and back into old habits? Or was there a stress induced incident in your life that took control? You were making great strides - so back in the boat, catch your breath, get on the scale, develop a new game plan, set some goals, and reach for the finish line! You can do this!!! 

Hi Paula, No, it was not a stress induced incident, just lost motivation. At first it was the weekends with social committments and lots of yummy food available. Then, it slipped into the weekdays and me saying I need to get back on track get back on track but never happening. I also completely forgot about fat secret. I know you are saying, how can you forget about a site you have been visiting almost everyday for the three months? But I did and I really love to play spades on yahoo and while playing I mindlessly eat and eat and eat. I wasted way too much time on yahoo spades which left me no time for excercise. I also completely forgot about my vitamins and supplements, which I was taking reliously for the past three months. Sometimes I feel I am just meant to be fat and I will never be the right weight for my height. One thing I know for sure is the being thin makes me a happier person. I feel miserable when I heavy but I feel I have no control over eating. As soon as I see food I put it in my month, its an automatic reaction. Even when I making lunches for the kids, I'm eating half the stuff I pack. I really, really need to control myself. Well, its 11:40 I'm still sticking with my diet so far today. Don't laugh, but its an accomplishment. I also walked 7 miles today. I'm happy about that. I need to focus on becoming a healthy person. Paula, thanks for visiting and caring. I appreicate it!  

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