blessed0989's Journal, 22 April 2022

Best of luck on your journey! You totally GOT this!! 💪 💯 🌞 🌝 🌎 

GIRL I feel you on this, deep. One foot in front of the other. 

Thanks guyssss And I know right Allegra ! I want to make my before picture my screensaver but don’t want anyone else to see it 😂  

Welcome back!! xo 

Hayyyyy wifeyyyyy 

so, so true. the fitting room mirror was my ah-ha moment. 

Glad you're back! Good luck! 

my ah-ha moment is when my beauty salon lady took off my hair-cut-gown and i was shocked at how BIG i was under it - didn't recognize my body as mine, but it is 

My revelation was when I took photos of myself front, side and back in clear light, full body, no flexing, no weird angles, no flattering clothing, just a bikini. Omfg the back fat, the tricep fat, the fat around the glutes...but it was also extremely encouraging to see the changes as the weeks went by and see what my body was really like underneath the unsightly fat. 

I can completely relate to this! It really sneaks up 😩 I’ve done well with losing weight tracking what I eat but feel like I may have to keep track forever now. 

I don't take pictures of myself when I am overweight. My profile picture is from about 4 years ago after I lost nearly 50 pounds. I've gained it all back. I saw myself in a mirror the other day at a shoe store and that depressed me. I am used to seeing myself in my bathroom mirror and don't pay much attention - but catching that large sized woman in the mirror while looking for shoes was awful. 

Thanks erq1!! I hope so ! and hayyyyyyy DP!!! Good to see your gorgeous face again! Sugarplum, fritzy, and oats the whey all of your comments i so relate to. My mirror at home is such a liar . A sweet pair but still … it is such a shocker when you see yourself in a mirror out in public and are like wait WHATTTTTTT and oats that’s EXACTLY WHAT I DID! Bikini pics no standing tall as I can or popping the hip out or one leg lifted high on my toes blah blah blah just normal standing and the back fat the arm fat the love handles the cellulite on my thighs I never had before there are dimples everywhere and I don’t know when they got there bc I have just been wearing yoga and sweat pants forever :( And mommy2medina I am just realizing the same thing . I used to could get away with making slight changes or once I learned how to eyeball portions and calories I was fine but now I think I am going to actually have to care and be intentionally almost daily for the rest of my life 😭 😭  

Yes things does sneak up. I remembered I thought to myself I still have decent muscle, even the girl I was dating at the time told me I wasn’t fat. Compared now n before I had 20+ pounds of extra fat on me. Good luck n shred those fat away 

Blessed, exactly! You'll be happy you took them when you literally see your body emerge from under the fat as you get rid of it. It sucks when you take the initial pics especially the back for me (I looked "not that fat" and maybe even attractive to some from the front even at 140lbs) but being able to compare really keeps you going when it gets tough. 

Thanks Superman and hi mermee ! I totally am back in the gym and I see how far I have dropped away from what I used to be able to do but I can’t let that mess with me and just ease back into it safely so I can keep going ! And yes oats the way I know if I am doing everything right then the pictures won’t lie in a month even if I am still feeling fat I should definitely be able to see progress if I check the pictures so I will keep these ugly fat ones hidden until time to compare 😂