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Hi everybody ...
Today was one of the most stressful days I have endured in a longgggg time. I got to work and started my day , knowing that the dept of health was inspecting us. And at 8 am my biggest fear came true , as one of the surveyors was standing at my medication cart informing me that I was " the chosen one". Its kind of a crap shoot as to which nurse they choose. Aren't I lucky ? My boss told me yesterday that I had a 50/50 chance of being chosen, she also told me that she had faith in me and that I am great at my job and she wasn't worried at all. So as I found out I was chosen today I had a half hour to prepare. My boss told me to go take a quick break and get my head clear. When the time came , I think I even amazed myself. She must have been able to see that I care about my patients wholeheartedly ( I truly do ) . So as I was being quized over medications and diagnoses , I never faltered. About 15 minutes into her time with me the surveyor said " You really know these people , do you love your job?" I told her that I do love my job, I admitted that the last place I ever imagined working as a nurse was on a dementia unit. But that was where I was needed and fell in love with it. As we went on I told her little tidbits about my patients as we went along, telling her about the ones who aren't even able to speak , yet I still know them. After some time she looked at me and smiled and said " Alright , we are done here , you did great ". Alittle whole later my boss came and said " congratulations , you did it. " I looked at her and said how do you know so soon that I didnt mess up. And she laughed and said " Oh I know because if you had first she would have told you to your face and questioned your actions. And then she would have come straight to me. She didnt come to me after she was done with you , she moved on. " I am very proud of myself today , it feels good to know that I am good at a job that I love with all my heart.
The old food binging me would have used this as a reason to celebrate, to eat , to lose sight of my goal. The new me handled this in stride and ate well today. The new me , didnt even think about food. I did however stop and buy myself a bottle of wine. And after the kids get settled into bed tonight, I intend to have one nice relaxing glass. Just one, I rarely drink but this feels like a worthy occasion.
Diet Calendar Entries for 04 March 2014:
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1033 kcal
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Fat: 41.12g | Prot: 67.28g | Carb: 70.26g.
Breakfast: V8 Original 100% Vegetable Juice (5.5 oz), Cottage Cheese (Lowfat, 1% Milkfat, No Sodium), Coffee-Mate Sugar Free French Vanilla Liquid Coffee Creamer, Coffee. Lunch: Weight Watchers Jalapeno String Cheese, Hormel Homeland Hard Salami, Oscar Mayer Deli Fresh Virginia Brand Ham, Jason's Deli Dill Pickle Spear, Chunky Style Vegetable Beef Soup. Dinner: Green Giant Baby Brussels Sprouts & Butter Sauce, Mushrooms (Drained Solids, Canned), Giant Eagle Diced Tomatoes, Trader Joe's Hot Italian Sausage. Snacks/Other: Cabernet Sauvignon Wine. more...
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3995 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Housework - 1 hour, Desk Work - 2 hours, Walking (moderate) - 3/mph - 5 hours, Resting - 8 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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