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Karma...I just wrote a long journal and was questioning the purpose and content. It has disappeared perhaps saving me from a fait worse than death.
So--second week in a row of the five miles in a hour. Food intake still needs to up in regards to protein. I enojoyed the tips I received. I have been adding black beans to my salad. I am still at 170. Getting frustrated. I have been reading the tips on diet. I just really want to believe that this exercise will let me eat some fun food! But when! I may have to re-define fun food! My mom did not have to have more surgery on her toe/foot. Her doctor said she had a turn around and the healing process is getting better. What I am finding interesting in many areas of my life is that I am trying and yet I am still not really making a dent which leads me to believe the HOLE is quite large that I must dig from. I am making progress, but it is getting through that next ugly step. I am just not sure what that next step is. (pre-contemplation) I thought about thinking about losing wgt and getting my *$it together, (contemplation)I thought about losing wgt/getting healthy and getting my *$it together, (preparation) I thought of a way and planned to start on losing wgt, getting healthy and pulling my head out of my @$$, (action)I have gone to the gym, changed jobs, seperated from my lovely husband, went to the therapy, made a routine for my kids, blah, blah, (maintenance) keep doing it, (relapse)stopped doing it, (maintenance)went back to doing it and over and over and over again...so, I am stuck with what is the next step...I think I have to keep doing it until I reach the desired goal...maybe I don't have a desired goal. or the end goal is too far away and I don't have enough little goals. I get bored to freakin easy. Impulsive, impulsive, impulsive. I have been trying to accept boredom. Because it is a trigger. I am trying to sit in my boredom. It is pretty freakin hard. I fear I will be journalling more....yeegads! Is that a word?? Food is a word. Chocolate is another!
Diet Calendar Entries for 03 February 2014:
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1388 kcal
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Fat: 66.74g | Prot: 40.07g | Carb: 160.79g.
Dinner: Old El Paso Jalapeno Slices, Mancini Sliced Sweet Fried Onions, Great Value Romaine Lettuce, Cranberry Juice, Potato Chips, Tortilla Corn Chips, Cheeseburger with 1/4 Lb Meat and Mushrooms in Sauce on Bun. more...
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3190 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Housework - 1 hour, Walking (slow) - 2/mph - 2 hours, Shopping - 1 hour, Desk Work - 5 hours, Driving - 3 hours, Sleeping - 7 hours, Resting - 4 hours, Exercise machine (moderate) - 1 hour. more...
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