madaboutmoose's Journal, 01 January 2011

1-1-11

Good Morning!! Those of you who were awake to bring in the New Year may still be snoozing. Me? Oh I was in bed by 8 pm and up bright and early. What can I say? It was less than 10 degrees outside and I was tired!!

We had a lovely dinner last night though, lobster tails, big meaty shrimp, salad, bruschetta ... absolutely delicious!! Bob tried to teach me how to play Texas Hold 'em poker ... quiet but we had fun. We can have fun together going grocery shopping so go figure!

I haven't been great at putting my food in here on the site (mostly due to internet connection) but I have been paying close attention. Same with exercise. I'm doing it ... just not always putting it in here. It is paying off. This morning I was an even 195 ... just 5 lbs away from eating one of my dark chocolate bars my mom bought me for Christmas!! LOL!! 17 more days until my fatsecret anniversary. I'll be down a tad more by then too.

So ... here we are ... another year. Our respective journeys continue. Life continues. I still have much to learn. I find myself thinking about other friends here I haven't seen in such a long time. I would imagine it means they are off track or perhaps tired of us or in some kind of crisis in their life. I wish I had a way to reach out to them ... my presence here, even though it was intermittent was essential in me being here today. I so wanted to just crawl under a rock and disappear. But if I had, I would weigh MORE today. That old self-destructive pattern is still alive and well somewhere inside of me. I don't like it. It is no longer "comfortable" for me but it is still there.

But I am NOT the same as I have always been. I like the feeling of my lighter body. I like how I feel, wrinkles, loose skin, and all!!! I actually like feeling hungry and the subsequent satisfied feeling I get when I eat something really good for my body. I like being able to "feast" with no worries when I am on track. And so ... I will fight for ME. I will fight for feeling good. I know I am in excellent company ... with so many of you who are walking a similar path.

Time for me to get off of my duff here and get on my elliptical ... get that blood pumping!!! Have a wonderful New Year's Day!!!

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909 kcal

Fat: 18.00g | Prot: 57.66g | Carb: 136.07g.   Breakfast: Franz english muffin, Jarlsberg Lite, large egg, water. Lunch: banana, Blue Bunny Light Yogurt, light laughing cow cheese, Flat Out Light Italian, shrimp. Dinner: Eating Right Chicken and Vegetable Potstickers. more...

2686 kcal

Activities & Exercise: Precor Elliptical - 46 minutes, Resting - 15 hours and 14 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...