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I finally decided to admit defeat and weigh in this morning. The scale hasnt been any where near 138 in about a month, so i enterted my weight of 139.6 this morning, and hopefully for my official weigh in tomorrow, i will be able to enter a loss.
I am going thru a rough patch in my life right now, I'm frustrated with myself for completely losing my motivation, i'm frustrated with being a single parent 6 days out of the week, my son has started this new thing, where he complains about EVERYTHING, and that makes me feel like a bad mom, my cats have broken at least one valuable item in my house every day for the last 5 days in a row. (i'm really about to return them to the pound)... its got me in a real funk.
I just need my husband to be finished with school and home with us. I think thats whats really getting me down. Right now EVERYTHING is riding on my shoulders, i have no one to share daily responsibilities with. Even when he is home, he's so exhausted that he's no help. I just need one day when i dont have to stress about doing a million and one things by myself.
The worst part is that i cant talk to my husband about this because it makes him feel guilty. He's in school to get a degree and better all 3 of our futures, so who am i to complain about what i have to do while he's out busting his ass for us?
He's been in school for a little over a year now, and he only has about 4 months left, so i just hope i can hang on that long!
Diet Calendar Entry for 16 December 2010:
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1219 kcal
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Fat: 42.20g | Prot: 77.10g | Carb: 135.50g.
Breakfast: organic half and half, coffee, carb balance tortilla, brown eggs. Lunch: digiorno parmesan cheese, lean ground beef, tomato sauce, zucchini, Bell Pepper, red onion. Dinner: red onion, Bell Pepper, vegetarian refried beans, shredded cheddar, serrano chile, mission carb balance tortilla. Snacks/Other: pure protein, banana. more...
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